𝐁𝐔𝐑𝐍 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐘𝐎𝐔 - 𝐌𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐔𝐍𝐆

12 | shut up and kiss me

Now your mouth is moving, cinematic timing
You pull me in and touch my neck, and now I'm dying 
─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

I don't know why I agreed to this again. The music blasted loudly, and my ears needed to adjust to the overwhelming sound.

I leaned against the wall and watched others live their life that I couldn't imagine living. For a moment I wondered how many of them were faking. Who was truly having a good time?

I know I wasn't but the alcohol kept me company, not that I've had much to drink tonight. Truthfully I felt like I was babysitting my cup more than usual.

My gaze goes to Jeongin who joined us tonight. He spoke casually to a girl, well he came off casual but I know the male was losing his shit mentally because the girl before him is his crush. He yaps on and on about her but I tend to ignore him because it's the same shit every day.

A loud cheer pulls my attention, in the corner near the beer pong table stood the group of friends who seemed to have more fun than anyone else here. I must admit, they knew how to have a good time. There had been times I would be able to forget about my emotionally unavailable tendencies and just be all in with them on nights like these but now that I'm on the outside, they look really sloppy.

I pull my gaze away and take a drink. I push off the wall and toss the cup in the trash before walking out the back sliding doors that were wide open. I was about to turn but Lloyd stood there with two other males, making me avoid any other situation that would potentially make things awkward between us.

I normally don't see who I work with at the pool after it closes, we kinda just catch up every summer and then not talk for the rest of the year but I had a weird feeling Lloyd didn't want that. He wanted to be friends.

My eyes look over the backyard before I enter the shed that the frat turned into a man cave or at least that's what they call it. Chan was really hyped about it when the idea came about, Georgia just went along with his excitement.

I sit on the arm of the couch and pull my phone out. I was supposed to walk Georgia back to the apartment tonight because Chan was sleeping here and she refuses to sleep here. She believed the frat house has lots of different types of germs and honestly, she's probably right.

The opening of the door made me pull my gaze away from my phone and watch as Hyunjin walked in. I was lucky enough to find this shed empty but now I regret coming alone.

"Hey," He offers a small smile.

"Hey," I reply, not giving him any sort of reaction.

I don't know what Hyunjin wanted from me. All of this effort confused me because I've only ever been blatantly honest with everything. I never once led Hyunjin on, from the start I told him I didn't do relationships. He told me he didn't want to go into another one, he said he wanted sex. How was I supposed to know he fell for people so quickly?

"Can we not talk about this right now?" I said suddenly, I knew why he was here. "I'm tired of talking about it"

Hyunjin watches me, nodding slowly "Fine" His words were low as he accepted his defeat, "You don't want to talk about it? Fine" His tone was sharp.

I sigh loudly, "You don't understand" I shake my head, getting irritated that he kept turning this on me "You weren't supposed to care"

"Well, I do!" Hyunjin says loudly, running his fingers through my hair "I get it, I get you don't do the whole fucking feelings things but I do. You know why?" He asks me, walking closer to where I sat "Because I'm fucking normal"