I went to sit on the porch after the conversation about the baby. Lee brought me a glass and a bottle of wine and a blanket so I could sit and think about my little girl. I miss her dearly. About 3 sips from the bottom of the bottle I realized I had to sober up to go home. I walked inside to grab a glass of water and something to soak up the alcohol I heard Kayce sobbing in the study as John and everyone tried to console him. It's been 5 years and it gets me crying every time I hear it so it's understandable how he feels. I made a noise in the kitchen and Beth ran out."Bella, do you have any pictures of her?" Beth asked. I smiled "l have lots," and took out my phone scrolling to the pictures."Can I take that to show Kayce and Dad?" I nodded and handed her my phone watching her walk to the study. I walked behind her, stopping at the door to hear what they thought. "Here she is Kayce. She was beautiful." Beth said sweetly. I heard him gasp and peaked my head in the door, seeing him shed new tears. "She is beautiful." Kayce cried. John cleared his throat and said."She is, and she was your twin son." They all looked at her photos. Kayce didn't stop crying and a bit later walked outside. I turned to Jaime,"Sorry, but could you drive me home? I drank the entire bottle of wine Lee gave me."
Jaime and Lee looked at eachother than at me."We hate to ask B.." Lee started before John interrupted, "Bella can you please stay tonight? I know we have no rights to ask and he screwed up but he needs you in order to process this. I'm not saying forgive him, I'm just asking to please..." I cut him off, "Just because he wasn't there for me doesn't mean I wouldn't be there for him. I just have to check the foals real quick, I was planning to come right back."
John looked relieved."I'll go let him know I'll be right back." John nodded- she heard him say as she walked away. "That woman is a saint." Bella smiled as she walked towards the back door and stepped out into the night. Kayce was sitting in a chair, sobbing, with his head in his hands. I walked over to him and said sweetly, "Hey cowboy." He wiped his eyes and sat up, and I sat on his lap, cuddling my body into him and running my hand through his hair as he cried into my shoulder. A few minutes later his tears were slowing."Kayce I gotta go check on my foals. Jaime's gonna bring me home-" "No, please stay. Don't leave," Kayce interrupted. Bella smiled a sad smile at him and soothed him by saying, "I'll right back. I promise. I'll even leave my truck here." He sniffled, "I need you tonight. I'll drive you." Bella touched his chest,"I know, and I planned to be here. You can come but you're also had a drink." Kayce nodded, "Okay. I'll just ride." Bella stood up and held out her hand for him, but he stood up and picked her up by her thighs, carrying her saying,"I need more than a hand."
Jaime got me home as Kayce held onto me in the backseat. I got out and Kayce followed, checking on the foals and the calf. They were all great, Kayce gave them some more fresh hay. I decided to go grab some extra clothes so I quickly ran inside, Kayce following. "Brings back memories." he said quietly. I smiled as we went to leave and locked the door. The drive back to the Yellowstone was quiet. When we walked back in, the house was quiet too. Everyone retreated to their rooms, Jaime soon did too. That left just Kayce and I. I walked to the bar, "You want a drink Kayce?"I said quietly. He looked over at me with a sad look in his eyes, "No thank you, I wanna feel this," as he sat on the couch. I nodded and walked to the chair, when he grabbed me and pulled me into him."Told ya I needed you baby," Kayce said into my neck.
We stayed that way for a few minutes. I remembered something Kayce liked as a comfort back during our relationship. "How about a bath?" I said to him. He nuzzled my neck,"Would you get in with me? I just wanna hold you." he whispered. I nodded."I can get in. I'm here to help you cowboy." I whispered back and stood up. He grabbed my hand and I led him up to his bathroom. I started the bath and poured in some bubbles and Epsom salt. He went back down to grab my clothes and some water. I lit the candles, I was turning off the lights so he could cry and not feel vulnerable if he needed to. I clipped my hair up away from my neck and saw him closing the bedroom door, then getting out his own clothes to sleep in, setting them on the chair in his bedroom. He came back into the bathroom and shut the door. He looked nervous, like he wanted to talk but he was scared. I walked over and hugged him, I hope he knows I don't blame him for this. But he's who I wanted to comfort me when she died, of course I'd be here for him. I looked up at him and kissed his cheek for comfort. Nothing about right now is sexual, but it's intimate, it's raw, it's love and it's pain. I started to undress him and he started to undress me. Once naked, he picked me back up and carried me with him into the bath, sitting me on his lap so we were chest to chest. He held me to him as he started to cry again. I ran my fingers through his hair to comfort him. I kissed his shoulder and whispered. "If you have questions you can ask me. It's me. I won't judge you or if you just wanna talk we can. You don't have to sit in silence if that isn't what will help. Remember I went through this. I can help." he sobbed and nodded but stayed quiet for a few minutes to gather himself I bet. We talked for over an hour about the baby, labor, how I moved on after her loss. We cried, we laughed, we made plans to see her grave together, we made promises that if it ever gets too painful, we'd tell each other. Regardless of the future, we can be there for each other for our daughter.
It was at that moment I moved and felt his erection brush my thigh."I'm sorry, it's not me who's doing it, it's evolution. I'm too sad to make my dick stand." Kayce said quietly. I smiled, " and here I thought it was because of how hot I am." He chuckled and kissed my forehead, mumbling," That's evolution baby. I can't help that it's attracted to you. Your presence makes it hard. But if you were looking for sex tonight baby, I'm sorry I can't tonight." Kayce looked at you with sad soft eyes. I smiled back,"I'm glad after all these years that hasn't changed, you've always been a horn-ball. Always ready to fuck me at the drop of a hat. But I wasn't looking for anything besides to comfort you. Just because I'm back on the market doesn't mean I need some dick immediately." Kayce wiggled around so my face was to his. "Back on the market? You're single?" Kayce asked. I smiled and nodded,"Yeah, broke up with Luke earlier. He wasn't happy I was helping the family and said something stupid, so I told him to fuck off. He said I was probably fucking you so I told him we were done, blocked him, and deleted all parts of him from my life." Kayce smiled and said,"I'll kill him. You don't seem sad though." I sat up, "No murders please, not worth it. I'm not really. I feel like he showed his true colors and That's that. I know you're loving this,and I know the next question is, did you do it for me? The answer is no. l did it for me, I love myself more than that to be called a liar and a whore when I've never done anything wrong." Kayce smiled."I'm glad you love yourself, I love you too though. I've always loved you."
"Monica told me she encouraged you to find me. And that she knew all about me."-Bella.
Kayce-" She did, I was a shitty husband. l looked for you everywhere. I'd say your name is my sleep, I called her your name during sex every time we had sex so we stopped having sex. There was a time when I got back from overseas that l had a flashback in the grocery store about the time I bent you over the sink in their bathroom and started acting it out while out of it. After a while, told her I wanted to find you and she understood telling me we deserved to be happy and to find you"
Bella-"You should apologize to her for all of that. I certainly will."
Kayce-"I'm sorry I didn't answer that day. I wish l had."
Bella-"I'm sorry I didn't tell you, you might have been there. I'm sorry you didn't get to meet her Kayce. I'm sorry that it took me so long to tell you about her. I just wanted you to be happy with your family."
Kayce- "Don't apologize. I broke your heart. You tried to let me meet her.Thank you for trying, thank you for loving our little girl Bella. I can't believe our dream came true. We always wanted a baby girl first."
Bella-"Always. I knew she was heaven sent because she was our dream. Do you want to get out?"
Kayce- "Will you sleep with me tonight?"
Bella-"If you need me to."
Kayce-"I'll always need you.
We got out of the tub and dried off. Kayce turned to me and asked,"Please don't think this is weird. Do you think we could sleep skin to skin tonight?" I looked at him with a concerned look on my face and said, "skin to skin?" He laughed and whispered,"Naked, skin touching. No funny business I promise, remember it's just broken right now." Kayce stared at his dick, and l laughed. "If that's what you need, we can try it." Bella said softly. Kaye locked his door and we made our ways to the bed, he got in and pulled the covers back as I climbed in. He then lifted me to lay completely on top of him. It was weird at first but as he fell asleep, his face softened and looked peaceful. When I tried to move he woke up and pulled me back up. We fell asleep and for the first time in a long time, we both slept in. By the time I woke up it was 11:15am.
