Today,
The sun shines brighter than it has in a while;
The birds are flying around,
Chirping a little louder than they have in a while;
The people are excited,
And sitting in their seats,
More excited to be outside than they have in a while.
I suppose that's a sign,
That spring has finally come.
Today would be considered the first nice day out,
After a brutal winter.
Most people are going outside.
Most people are enjoying the day.
Playing with friends,
Hanging outside,
Going for walks.
But not me.
I'm not most people.
I won't sit outside,
And be happy about the weather.
Instead,
I'll be sitting inside,
Trying to work up the courage to go the cemetery,
And visit her.
Even though I know I probably won't.
I don't have the courage.
Or the strength.
One year ago today,
The only girl I've ever opened up to,
Ever shared everything with-
Killed herself.
It was so unexpected.
Honestly, I would have expected it a few months before.
And I'm surprised that she didn't.
Never did I expect it then.
When everything finally seemed to be getting better.
Honestly,
it's the fact she didn't-
And after months of trying,
She finally gave us a chance.
Everything seemed to be going well.
Until suddenly there was this strange distance.
It seemed to get better.
Then only worse.
I thought Stevie had gotten better,
Until one night,
I was kissing her and,
I felt the cuts all over her legs again.
She left.
I knew she felt as if she disappointed me.
But she didn't.
She didn't have to run away-
I should have chased her.
Instead,
I called her mother.
And told her that Stevie was cutting again.
Stevie's mom found all the razors.
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Life Goes On (Sequel to "I'm Not Who You Think.") **ON HOLD/EXTREME REVISION**
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