V's Diary (One shots)

Living Death (Charlie Babe)

“It’s okay, it won’t matter that much.”

“It’ll be fine. Babe will be fine.”

“It won’t matter that much.”

“What if P’Babe wouldn’t want me back?”

“I have no right to beg, nothing at all. What will I do then?”

“But P’Babe will be safe, I have to keep him safe.”

“I can’t be selfish, yeah I cannot be. I have to go through with the plan.”

….

“How’s P’Babe?”

“Did he stop crying? Has he eaten anything today? Is he okay?"

“I don’t think I’ll be able to return to P’Babe’s life after doing this.”

“I broke his trust again, I don’t want to see him sad again.”

“I always have a reason. But the person who always gets hurt is P’Babe."

“Ultimately, it won’t matter whether it’s fake or real death. For him, I will be dead. If that’s the case, I’ll prefer to die for real, so that he can accept it and move on.”

“I don’t want Babe to cry again because of a fraud like me.”

Charlie thought less and less about himself as time passed by, simultaneously he missed Babe more and more with each passing second.

Life was hard for Charlie since he was born with special abilities, he was an unlucky person after all. The only good thing in his life was meeting Babe, despite the opportunity to love Babe, he was an unlucky person all along. He couldn’t even live with the person he loved.

………..

-Can you not love me so much?

- Because I feel like I can’t love you well enough.

-I’ve never been loved before to know what that means, but you loving me is enough.

Babe has been observing Charlie since the day he returned. Way’s death was hard to cope with at first, but his puppy’s behavior was becoming a matter of concern rapidly. What exactly happened to his sunshine puppy of a boyfriend?

He couldn’t ask, because Charlie behaved perfectly normal with him, took care of him like always, and loved him with the same vehemence if not more.

What concerned Babe was Charlie without Babe. He has seen his boyfriend zone out more often than not, Charlie slept less but refused to accept that he was having nightmares. Babe tried to coax out answers but Charlie firmly refused to talk.

Charlie was protectiveness and obedience personified but he had a different edge to his personality that Babe couldn't decipher.

Something was keeping Charlie tense.

The line was crossed when others got involved. Sonic, Alan, and Jeff were visibly worried and started inquiring about their fellow team member but no one had any reasonable theory.

The only one that so far made sense was Charlie's accident, some things were harder to move on from, to talk about, and even worse as they festered to things unexplainable.