I changed Trelynn's Character. I just wasn't feeling Tinashe, sorry.
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I've come to terms with the fact that nothing is what it seems...
~ [ What you've been taught is that who you are isn't quite good enough. And now you need to be slightly more than, bigger than, brighter than, smarter than, slimmer than, fatter than, richer than how you are at the moment. It's just some idea that sometime in the future you can be better than how you are right now, but it's 2 precise ideas that you've accumulated and that you've been fed, so if you look happy with who you are... It's actually good news because you're not who you think you are... THIS LIFE IS AN ILLUSION... Who you think you are is who you think you are.] ~ Illusions.
Trelynn😏
Here we go again. I'm right back at square one. In the same predicament I was in before with Christian. The abuse is worse than before and I can't run anywhere, only because he always finds me. I wish I could get away, but I can't.
"Babe, do you know where my black beanie is?" Christian asked me.
"If it isn't in the closet on the shelf, then it's on your dresser." I answered, rubbing Junior's curly hair.
"Okay." He went into his room then seconds later came back downstairs with his beanie. "Come here, please." He said walking into the kitchen area.
I sighed and sat Junior down in his swing. "Mommy will be right back, baby." I kissed his forehead and smiled.
"Yes?" I asked Christian, who was staring a hole in my fucking face.
He sighed and walked over to me putting his hands on my hips.
"I'm going to change and get help babe, I just need you here and your support. I love you even though I don't really show it. I have some problems and I am admitting that. I don't mean to hurt you, or get angry like that and scare you or disrespect you. I apologize, just please don't leave me."
He just sat here and kind of poured his heart out to me and apologized... And I don't give a fuck about anything he just said. It went in one ear and out of the other, I would be a damn fool to believe anything that he says. I have dealt with his shit for way too damn long and I'm done.
"Tre, did you hear me?" He asked.
"Yes, I heard you Christian." I said, looking at my nails.
I need a fill in.
"You don't have anything to say?" Christian asked, he was getting mad.
"Christian, I really don't know what to say. You really want me to forgive you, after all you have done and all you put me through? Did you know that I was actually pregnant when you beat me? After that, I had a miscarriage. I don't think I can keep dealing with you."
"You make me hit you, Trelynn. If you stop pissing me off and just do as I say we wouldn't have a problem." He said, getting in my face.
"You say the same thing every fucking time. It's different ways that you could handle things, Chris. I'm just done. I am done with you and everything that has to deal with you." I said.
"You not gon leave cause you'll be right back here. Trelynn you know I always find you. You can't get away from me and you aren't taking my son from me, I told you this before." He said.
"Watch me." I turned away and started walking out of the kitchen.
Before I could even get out of the kitchen, he hit me. I fell to the floor, holding my head.
