"I'd accept your help, but I'm not stupid. I know everything costs something in these walls, so what is it that you want?"
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MichealScofied
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Season 1
This book is a MichealxOC however it is not a romance until the later half of the...
I've only been down this corridor twice. Once when I first arrived, in order to have my physical, and the second when I was unconscious and rapidly loosing blood from my stab wound.
I subconsciously reach up and touch my shoulder as I think about it.
"Here" the guard says as he gestures to a door. "Wait in there for the doctor to see you"
I walk into the room and I recognise the chair where I was treated on.
I take the opportunity to look around and I notice the medical equipment that is lying on the side, unattended.
It takes everything in me to not walk over there and steal something- only to be used in defence of cause.
Suddenly, my eyes dart over to the door as the doctor walks in.
"How long have you been in here unattended?" She asks as she sees me
"Oh, about three seconds" I say with a small smile
She looks at me, unconvinced, before I show her my hands that are handcuffed infront of me
She looks from them to my face before she sighs and nods.
"Come sit down" she says as she gestures over to a metal chair.
I walk over and sit myself down, taking note of exactly where the nearest exit is incase I need it.
It's not that I don't trust the woman, it's just that I don't trust anyone. I try not to let myself be caught out in a room with myself and another person- it's a psychological thing- I couldn't think of anything worse then being trapped in a room alone with someone that could do anything.
"So I heard that you wanted to talk to me about period cramps?" She asks as she sits infront of me
It takes me a second before I realise and I instantly smile
"No, that's just what I told the guard" I say
She looks at me in confusion
"You tell a guy a scentence with the word period in it and they get fumbled, you should have seen the guards face- he took me here quicker then you could imagine, not knowing what else to do" I say
"Unfortunately I do know what you mean. It's hard being the only female doctor in here sometimes" she says as she looks down to scribble something onto her paper
"At least you get to leave everyday and talk to other females" I say
She look up and I give her a small smile before playing with my hands
She places her pen down and turns to me
"I really am sorry about what happened to you" she says
It catches me off guard, but not more then when she places her hand on top of my fidgeting one.
"Which part? The part that led to my prosecution or the part where I'm in a jail full of men that want to kill me or rape me... maybe even both?" I say
She shakes her head
"I'm glad that you came in, I was told that you wouldn't accept any of my requests to see you" she says
I look down as she removes her hand from mine
"I wasn't ready" I admit with a straight face "I needed to decide when I was ready to ask for help" I say
"I see.... Well whatever made you decide to come and see me, I am glad that you are-"
"-who" I say
"What?" She asks
"Who convinced me to come and see you" I say
She open and closes her mouth before she settles on a smile
"So what is it that you really want to talk to me about today?" She asks
"I'm having problems with my health" I say "my... mental health" I add
She looks at me and nods before she starts to write things down
The sound of silence and her pencil scratching on the paper causes me anxiety
"I'm not having a psychotic episode, I don't need to be in the loony bin with the others-" I try to justify in fear that she's separating me from others even more
"It's ok, Sienna" she says. Her calming voice, just for a second sounds like one of my sisters comforting me like they used to when I was little. It almost makes me forget that she used my name.... Almost
"Lucas." I say firmly "my name is Lucas. Only my family call me Sienna"
She nods
"Lucas, if that is how you would prefer to be addressed, did your mental health start getting worse since you've come to prison?" She asks
"Yes, I've always had depression flare ups. Of cause I never knew it was depression as my Father never believed in anything like that, but since I've felt so isolated here..... it's been getting increasingly more common" I say
She takes a moment to think before she sighs
"I'm going to be honest here, I could prescribe you medication, but that would only make you tired or I could simply tell you what I am forced to tell other convicts who come into my office saying the same thing- go outside and you will feel better"
I look at her like she is crazy
"What?" I breathe out in disbelief
"I can't do much else for you- I can't get you out of your cell and with others as you might end up killed-"
"I've heard enough" I say as I push myself to stand
I knew this was a bad idea
"Wait, Sienna-"
"It's Lucas" I say as I stand
"I wish I could be more helpful but the state won't let me" she says "it's not me that wants you to suffer, it's the lack of-"
"Goodbye Doctor"
After shutting the door I take a moment to try to catch my breath as I realise how angry I actually am.
How dare she treat me like I am some kid with a headache. How dare she tell me to go outside and breathe.
Doesn't she understand that I can't do that?! I can't go outside as it reminds me of how separated I am from people!
It kills me seeing Sucre and Ink walking about talking to each other and knowing that I am sat in my own cage- alone.
It kills me knowing that I'm trapped here and it's all my Fathers fault!
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