Carry Me Out

FEET

I was fine, I was happy I graduated
I was fine, I was happy I'll leave home
For college. But that changed everything.
Moving to a distant place
Away from my family, my home, my mother,
It was thrilling, I was excited,
Excited to face the world
But that changed everything.
The first week was fine, I was happy,
And the happiness was like soda
Was like carbon, bubbling up.
Then I got home after a week,
I wanted to stay in the house
But I remember I have to go back
My feet were unstoppable
Like waves, it billows so fast
I drowned. I got home for the
Second time, I sang a song.
This house is full of women,
Playing guitar, cooking breakfast,
Sharing trauma doing dishes
And where are you?
I remember my mother, my aunts,
I remember all the women in the house
And returning, I knew I couldn't have
The feeling of the song, I knew I have to
Cope with the absence of the familiar feeling—
A touch of a mother, a comfort.
I love my mother, I wish I could tell her
That. I love my mother, I wish I could
Greet her a happy birthday on 12th of
September. But I can't go home and tell her
I love her. I love my mother, like god
Never existed. I love my mother she's the first
One I put between the stars and the universe.
I love my mother i deny god.
She gave me everything god couldn't.
I love my mother I wish I could tell her
How I hate my feet, that it walked.
That as soon as I learned how to
Walk on my own, I'd walk away from her.
I'd walk alone without her. I hate how
She taught me to walk just to help me
From the start and let me be who I am,
Let me walk the path she made for me,
And let me reach the end without her,
Just watch me to the pinnacle while
She stood away, smiling, proud.
I love my mother I know no god.