(Courtney's Pov)
It's been a week since dad and I moved to Sydney. I am all settled in my room. My bed all made the night we got here. I haven't painted the room yet. The color is beginning to grow on me. Knowing that this was Luke's room makes me feel more safe at night. Dad is gone a lot because of his job and I am home alone. Haven't talk to Luke since that night and I don't want to. Luke deserves better than me as a best friend.
Choosing whether to get on social media or not is a constant struggle for me. I want to see what is being said about me, but then I don't. October is coming and I am not looking forward to the hot days. You see, when it is winter in the other side of the wold, it is summer here. And when the "winter" comes here, it only gets down in the forties.
Once February, fall begins. It makes me wonder how Christmas will be when it is summer in Australia. I haven't had an Australian Christmas since I was a little girl.
When my dad is home, he checks up on me every once in a while. I don't talk often and when I do, it is to say "no". I barely eat anymore. Maybe one meal a day if my dad forces it.
The only thing that has been eventful to me is that I have already been to the hospital here in Sydney. My father was so disappointed in me but I wasn't. I was and still am emotionally empty. I don't feel anything anymore. Hunger, anger, sadness, and most of all, happiness. I had relapsed. It is usually the first cut when you relapse that is the deepest. So I had to get ten stitches.
Since then I have been cutting again. I kept the box cutter that my dad gave me when we were in packing. I took the blade out before I gave it back to him.
I was extremely depressed before I met Luke and once I met him. I realized that I had to stop. For him. But now I don't even know what I am to him anymore. Am I just someone he will forget when going on his next tour? Or am I someone who will be his first thought when he wakes up in the morning and last week though when he goes to sleep at night?
So you guys didn't say you wanted an update soon so I just waited until I was bored enough to update. Hope you read the chapter. Bye. 😔
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The blue eyed Australian (L.H) {ON HOLD}
FanfictionCourtney, a girl with relationship issues and a family that is broken. Meets a guy that reminds her of her home. His name was Luke. Luke Hemmings. He seemed to just want to be friends, but is that really true? Read on to find out the relationship...
