Anonymous writings

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I fear the lover girl in me has died.
Knowing now the fairytales and movies lied.
Finding out the hard way, that the love I long for is no longer alive.
It made me not so eager to take that dive.

To load up and settle myself inside, all to be something you hide.
Having to tell people you got me only cause you lied.
That over time I've become afraid of fake happiness in my futures frame.
Regardless of  my dream to hold a special nickname.

It always ends the same.
For it's all just a game.
All a big show to try and prove I can be tamed,
Yet the beast within me needs not be claimed.

All messy mane,
Happily my own dame.
With an inundation of emotions and passions that trickle out of me like rain.
I know the only reason they want me is to gain from having a princess tied at the end of their chain.

Every attempt reminds me of how my love became nothing but the fuel you burned to ignite your flame.
Leaving me sinking to all fours, crying behind doors and ruminating for answers, seeking comfort from the floor.

Wondering why I settled for suffering over healing.
How I quietly strained yet remained all to protect feelings.
When you said those words was there any meaning..
Or were you simply just experimenting?

It's truly a shame,
How I let myself stand still as you took aim.
How when you did, I gave out praise
And still I'm left as the one at blame.

A shame now that when love comes calling,
despite wanting.
I just hang up the phone, walk away and say.
Thanks for the opportunity but I'm not interested in playing.

P.s: I'm still working on a title but I really liked this one so have it anyway <3
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