burning desire || kai smith.

chapter 1 - what have i gotten myself into?

Juliette's pov:

i hate being a princess.

yes you might say that i'm just trying to seek attention or whatever but being a princess is the worst thing known to mankind i'll tell you that.

first of all, i've never asked to be one, or maybe i did when i was like 6 on my Christmas wishlist, but honestly, I didn't think Santa would eventually make it come true.
second of all, it feels like you're being controlled by societal criticism, i can't do this, can't do that, just cause it's not "royal" like. and i just hate hate hate being filtered and hiding my true persona around people. then, i have to mask myself every single day with this traditional make up that is just so ugly and cakey, i have to wear dresses, have my hair styled, my etiquette on cue and a lady like posture, basically i have to be this perfect doll on a display for others, perfect cause otherwise they wouldn't want me as their queen.
but most importantly, tell me why do i have to wake up early every single morning just to practice random etiquette. yeah that's what started my train of complaint for today.

its currently 5:30 am and i have to meet Hutchins by 5:45 in the courtyard for a 2 hours practice of, quote on quote from Hutchins, "the rightful way of bowing down to children as an educated princess". whatever that is, i have to take it up along with other stupid royal etiquette every. single. day.
my sister, Harumi, doesn't have to do all of this work since it's been decided that i'm going to take the throne cause i'm the eldest. yes, i know we both are not royals by blood, but since there are no rightful heirs to the throne our parents decided that it'll be the best for me to become their heir.

as i was walking down to the courtyard, i saw Harumi going to her room. Ever since i started busying myself with duties, Harumi has been doing God knows what and we've become somewhat distant with each other. we don't talk as much as we used to and it makes me sad. i miss the days when we would stay up and joke around, she reminded me of my younger self, always so curious and creative wanting to know everything.

"good morning your Highness"

my train of thought was interrupted by Hutchins' voice as i arrived in our meeting area i'll go talk to her after this lesson is over.
"good morning to you too Hutchins"

"thank you princess Juliette, it's a lovely morning today, isn't it?"

"yeah so lovely! you know Hutchins ever since we started doing these etiquette lessons, mornings have become my favorite part of the day! every night i look forward to the next morning and the next etiquette lesson!" my tone was full of sarcasm as i forced a smile

Hutchins gave me an unimpressed look before continuing "that is no way a royalty like you should talk like, control yourself princess. now let's start our lesson, shall we?"

i rolled my eyes as i followed where Hutchins was going. all i wanted to do now was to be peacefully cuddled up in bed while working on my new designs with a hot chocolate in hand and soft background music, was that too much to ask for?

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"see you later princess, you did very well today, i'm proud" said Hutchins with a small smile plastered on his face.

"thank you Hutchins, have a lovely morning." my lesson was finally over, i wanted to get away from there as soon as possible. honestly learning "the rightful way of bowing down to children as an educated princess" was hard and not thrilling at all, especially when you have someone like Hutchins right behind you, who likes to point out every single tiny mistake you make. i was glad it was over tho.