Sooner or later

Chapter 6

Matt took me to a very fancy restaurant for breakfast. I can't believe he even wanted to be out with me. Teachers just didn't date students.
But the breakfast was amazing
I couldn't thank him enough as he drove me home. I felt like the luckiest girl in the world.
How old are you? He asked me.
I'm 18
I heard him grunt like someone had hit him in the stomach
What's wrong I ask him
Nothing
But something was wrong. I could feel it in his voice, but I didn't want to press the issue so I let it go.
When we pulled up to my house, I turned to him and he was looking out the window. Do you want to come in? I ask, he looked at me.
Do you think that's a good idea?
I don't know I said
It sure didn't bother him last night
I think I should go home Jesse
OK, I said
I'll see you Monday
See you Monday
I watched him drive away, not knowing what he was upset about
I couldn't wait for money to get here. I get to see him again even if it was just in class.

When Monday rode around, I dressed in tight jeans and a nice white top. It did look good on me. I done my make up and put my hair up in a messy bun
I sprayed perfume and then I was off
As I pulled up to the school, my heart was pounding every time I even thought of him I got sick to my stomach as I walked in class. There was a few kids in there and Matt was at his desk
He looked up and saw me and grown as if he was in pain
But I made my way to my desk and sat down. I could feel his eyes on me, but I wasn't gonna let him get to me. Whatever his problem was he could deal with it.
I tried to concentrate on my work, but it was getting hard. I could feel mats eyes on me once I looked up and he was watching me, but he quickly looked away. When class was over. I left without saying.
My next classes were easier to get through, but then I had Matt again this time he was in the room alone
I went and sat down and looked up
Why he said
Why what?
Do you know what you're doing?
I was very puzzled at this. What are you talking about? I said.
Nothing, just forget it
I didn't understand what he was talking about. What did he mean? Did I know what I was doing? He never said anything else the rest of the class I was glad I only had one more class with him.
The last class with him would be a breeze and flyby, but when it ended, I was the last one out, even though I tried to rush out the door
But Matt grabbed the arm and pulled me back
Jesse wait, he said
I waited till all the other kids laughed, and then I looked at him
I want to come over tonight he said
Why?
I just wanna talk to you he said
About what?
Dammit Jessie do I have to have a reason he yelled
I flinched. I guess not.
So can I come over?
I guess so
OK, great I'll come over around 6:30
OK, I told him
I didn't understand why he wanted to come over and talk about, but I guess I'd find out soon enough although the thought of him coming over again made me very nervous. People were gonna start talking if they seen him coming over a lot but when I got home. I took a shower , and cleaned up redone my make up. I didn't look bad if I had to say so myself.
I cleaned up the apartment and waited for Matt to come over. I was really looking forward to it. I heard a knock on the door a little bit later
I opened it
Matt said they're looking so hot. I swallowed hard.
Are you gonna let me in he said
Oh yeah, sorry I said
He came in and sit down
You're doing great in class he said
Thank you
You're gonna make a great vet
I'm hoping so I told him
Well, you're my best student
I doubt that I said
Well, I don't and that's why I'm here to tell you how good you are doing
Well, thanks
I know we both have to get up early so I won't stay long
I didn't know what to say. I didn't want him to leave.
You OK, he asked me
Yeah, I'm fine
Why are you afraid of me?
I'm not afraid of you why would I be?
I don't know you're always jumpy when I'm around. You run out my classes so you tell me.
How could I tell him I had a crush on him
I couldn't
Why did I have to fall for my teacher?
I don't know I told him
He moved closer to me, and I felt my heart pounding
I think I do, he said
You do
Yes
I didn't say anything did he know how I felt did he know about my crush?
Jesse, I can't get you out of my head he said
I swallowed hard. I've tried so hard. He said it's wrong and I know it but God help me. I can't stop thinking about you.
I looked at him. He brushed my hair for my eyes.
Matt, I said we can't
Don't you think I know that he whispered, but it still doesn't stop me from thinking about you
He leaned closer and suddenly I felt his lips on mine
They were so soft
I open my mouth and I let him take control and kiss deepened, and I heard him moan as his tongue in my mouth I was lost we kissed
For like 15 minutes, finally pulled away
I'm sorry, he said, but dammit if you aren't the sexiest girl I've ever ever known
He left me wanting more
More than just kisses
Why did he stop? We were both breathing hard.
I better go he said he stood up. I stood there and looked at him.
Dammit Jessie don't look at me that way or I'll stay and do something we both may regret
He left and I was alone
He left me wanting more howwas I gonna face him? Tomorrow. After what we had just done.

The next morning, I got ready for class, although I wasn't looking forward to it. I'm sure Matt had regretted what had happened between us and yet I had to face him. What would he say to me or what would I say to him?
I made it to class wasn't in the room yet
Thank goodness
I took my seat as others came in Matt came in, but he didn't even look my way. I suddenly felt used and hurt when class ended. I left and didn't even look his way to play his game.
I made it through the next two classes and I had Matt again as he did the first class he didn't even look at me. I felt like crying, but I wasn't going to let him get the best of me. I made his second class and then it was lunch . I didn't want any company. From anyone
I looked over and saw Matt at the other side. He was looking at me. I turned away as fast as I could I so couldn't wait to pair this day to be over with. I wanted to go home suddenly it's been a been a veterinarian didn't seem that important anymore .

The last class I had was mad I felt like skipping, but I didn't. I went ahead and showed up of course this time I was the first one in the class Matt was at his desk. He looked up when I walked in, but then I looked back down I was upset why was he acting this way?
Did I do something wrong? I ask him.
He looked up at me
No Jesse, you haven't he said
Then why are you treating me like the plague?
I think it's for the best he said
For the best I've told him
Jesse, we're both know this is not a good thing
I know, but
Let's leave it at that he said
I didn't say anything else I made it through the class and couldn't wait to go home. I was done with men all they knew how to do was break hard and cheat. I was so done. I made plans with Melissa that evening. I needed to get out and get my mind off map me and Melissa went out and had dinner. We went to the restaurant where Matt had taken me , said it was her and she was so as we sit down at the table, the waitress came over and took our order. I had a salad and some fried pork chops with mashed potatoes, corn, and green beans. I suddenly looked up to my surprise. There was Matt and some other woman. She looked older than him. I felt my heart he dumped me for an older woman. I wanted to cry, but I wasn't gonna let him see how much it was hurting me over this, he suddenly looked over and saw me
I turned away. I didn't even even want to look at him. Me and Melissa finished our dinner and then I was ready to go. We had to walk right past him and I felt my throat not up. I heard him grown as we walked by probably because he had gotten caught, I was so over men I couldn't do this anymore
It hurt too much. I didn't even hurt this much over Shane. Why did you have to do this to me Matt? I just wanted to go home and now nothing was gonna fix my broken heart.