diary ↬ lrh

january :: 1st

joanna

i woke up, stretching my body out, spreading my arms in the air. today was finally the day. the day i get to meet the love of my life. luke hemmings. i yawned, jumping out of my bed. "i can't believe this is actually happening." i thought to myself. i couldn't comprehend what was going to happen. what if i totally freak out in front of him? i went downstairs to get a glass of water, trying to clear my mind so i wasn't overwhelmed. it was 7:30 a.m. and i usually am a morning person, i don't like sleeping in much. i'm just super pumped for today!!

i smiled to myself, trying to go over in my mind of how i would greet them. "hey i'm joanna can i fuck you?" nahh.  "hey i'm joanna, will you please read this, pleaseee." maybe. i couldn't think of a good way to greet them, i'm not usually a people person. i don't have many friends and i never really have conversations with people because i suck at starting them and keeping up with them. i went back upstairs and looked through my closet deciding on what i should wear today.

i definitely need a good bra and pair of panties, yanno if anything happens. you never know. :-) i picked out my favorite bra and underwear. they matched and were black and lacy. then i searched my drawers trying to find bottoms and a top. i ended up deciding on a green day tee and jeans. then i looked through my shoes, deciding on what would match. "hmm, got it!" i said to myself, picking out my low top black on black converse. "perfect." i said to myself. i was obviously going to the concert by myself because i have no friends, so i have no one to go with. but it doesn't bother me.

i took a shower, getting out and brushing my long, black hair as i slipped on my undergarments, and the jeans and tee. i started to apply makeup, not too much, but just enough so i don't scare anyone. i brushed my teeth and got ready as my hair dried to its natural long wavy curls. i loved my hair, but sometimes it was a little annoying and too long because i was only 5'3. i grabbed my diary, and went over to my cherry wooden desk, grabbing a purple sparkly gel pen.

i sat down in the chair and started to write today's date and time up in the right hand corner. "date: january 1st • time: 8:45 a.m." i put the end of the pen between my lips, thinking of how i should write my last diary entry. "dear diary, today i am going to meet the loml, luke hemmings. i can't believe i am actually going to meet the real luke hemmings. i still can't believe it. i'm so happy my heart is fluttering and i can't stop smiling. ahhh help me. anyways hint hint if luke ever sees this, text me. my number is •••-•••-••••. -love, joanna."

i sighed out a long breath, kissing the last page of my journal, my burgundy lipstick leaving a kiss mark. i shut it and put it in my purse. i hope luke reads it. i really do. the concert was at 5:30 p.m. i don't really know why i got ready so so early. i shrugged to myself, reapplying my burgundy lipstick, one of my key essentials, and one of the things i can't leave the house without. i decided i had nothing else to do, so i just started cleaning my room since it was kind of messy.

i turned on some music, as "she's kinda hot" came on. i smiled to myself, biting my lip. i started folding clothes, and putting them away as i danced and sang along to the music. "yeah we're alright though!!" i yelled, laughing and smiling uncontrollably. who knew a simple song or a band could make you so happy and effect your life in such a positive way.

i finished cleaning my room up, as i made my bed, and looked at the clock. "ugh, only 11 a.m.?!" i sighed, talking to myself. today was going by so slow. i went downstairs and made myself something to eat since it was lunchtime. i just ended up making kraft macaroni because i'm not much of a cook really. it was good anyways. i put my bowl in the sink and sighed. "1 p.m.?" jeez can this day go any slower? i sighed and plopped my body on the couch, flipping through the channels. i watched a few movies to kill the time.

"finally, 4 p.m.!!" i said to myself as i threw my purse on and grabbed my keys and phone as i walked out to my little volkswagen. i went in and started to drive towards the venue, holding journal once more and put it safely in my purse. 30 minutes later, i arrive at the venue, putting my sun visor down and looking at myself in the little compact mirror, fixing my lipstick once more just to make sure i look okay. "okay joanna, you can do this." i said out loud to myself, getting out of my car and locking the doors.

i swallowed hard, realizing how many people were around me. "jesus." i said to myself, trying not to get overwhelmed. i stood in line for the meet and greet, it was weird that they didn't preform first, but whatever. i was almost up there and i felt my hands getting clammy and shaky, i took a deep breath and exhaled. it was my turn. holy shit. i walked up to the table, meeting the boys and then i went to go meet luke, my heart was racing so fast. "um h-hi, do you mind reading this when you have time? please? it would mean a lot to me." i said, trying to keep calm as i handed him my diary. i closed my eyes for a second, trying to be as calm as i could.

"yeah sure, i'd love to." he said. he said yes. what. are you serious. my cheeks flushed a peachy color as i couldn't stop smiling. "thank you, thank you, thank you. i hope you like it, it means so much to me thank you." i said, hugging his tall, lanky figure. i can't believe i just gave luke hemmings my diary.