Detective Reeves (Supergirl/OC)

Chapter 11

"Are you sure you want to retire after this case?" My boss asked me.

"Yes." I told him. As much as I didn't want to leave I had to. I already knew that this case was going to affect me negatively and with Kara being here that only adds to the fire. I hate it because I still care for her and I still love her. It just hurts knowing that she doesn't remember me.

Maybe Kenzie and I would continue to be private investigators like how we were in another life. Maybe we could go back to Midvale where we first met. Or we could go to a new city where nobody knows our name. Maybe then I could put the past behind me where it belongs and forget Kara just like how she forgot me.

"Okay then." He says to me. "I'll process this as soon as possible and I'll let Alex know of the arrangements." He says to me but I stop him.

"Please I don't want anyone knowing. You can tell her and supergirl after the case." I told him and he seems surprised but he doesn't question me any further which I am very thankful for.

"Okay. We will miss you Jordan." He says to me with a smile. I say nothing and walk out of his office. I'm sure I've made the right decision. Right? As I'm walking I'm not paying attention all that much and I feel like I hit a brick wall.

"Damn." I say aloud.

"I'm so sorry. Jordan? Are you okay?" I hear the sweetest voice say. Shit. It was Kara. She was in her supergirl suit and damn did she look good. She always has. She seemed so worried about hurting me physically but she had no idea how much the mental hurt was worse.

"I'm fine you can relax." I say to her trying to play it off as I didn't really care about her all too much. But who was I kidding? How couldn't anyone not care for the girl? She was the kindest being in the universe and the most beautiful.

The way her smile could light up an entire room. The way her beautiful blue eyes saw right past all of my walls. The way her mere presence is enough to make anyone feel that much better. The way her soft and warm lips pressed against mine. That was something that I wished could happen again. But I know that it never will.

Kara could never love me again because of her memory. Even if she ever did remember, I'm no good for her. Kara took her pure heart and turned it into something good while I took my pain and misery and fucked it all up.

"You sure you're okay?" She says pulling me out of my thoughts. "You're looking at me weird?" She says looking over me. But then she cups my face and searches my eyes. I can see the Kara that I used to know and then just as quickly as it's there it's gone. She immediately pulls away and puts her arms at her sides. "I'm so sorry I know you don't like touch, I shouldn't have done that." She says beating herself up mentally.

I put my one hand up and cup her cheek just as she did mine. "You're okay, Kara. As long as it's you I don't mind." I tell her softly and she widens her eyes. "Only you." I say to her and I leave her there stunned. I walk out of the building never looking back and Kara doesn't follow me either. I get into my car and I sigh out frustrated.

"What's wrong with you?" Kenzie asks me with a mouth full of whatever sandwich she had shoved down her throat.

"I still love her." I sigh out buckling my seatbelt and pulling off.

"It doesn't take a genius to figure that out. What are you going to do?" She asks me still eating the last of her sandwich.

"Nothing. Not a damn thing." I told her. "As much as I love her I'm not good for her anymore. I'll still do everything in my power to care and protect her but I can't take it any farther than that." I said sighing.

"I wish things were different." Kenzie says sadly.

"Me too." I told her.

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"Oh my god." The girl on top of me moaned out. Blonde hair, blue eyes, abs starting to show and damn she was a good rider. She wasn't the girl I wanted tonight but she was the girl I had to settle for. "I'm gonna-." She says before stilling and shaking hard but I start thrusting up trying to get there too. She's getting louder now so I clamp my hand over her mouth and that's when I feel it.

"Fuck." I moaned out cumming hard. She falls over to the side and I stand up taking the condom off then throw it in the trash. I look at the girl on the bed completely spent from the last few hours. I grab my clothes that were thrown around on the floor and start putting them back on.

"Will I see you again?" The girl suddenly asks me and I sigh. I met this girl, who I can't seem to remember the name of, at this local bar and we hit it off pretty quickly. A couple drinks and one thing let to another then the next think I know we're booking a motel room.

"It's better for the both of us if we don't." I told her truthfully. I throw my jacket on and before the woman could say anything I walk out the motel room. This wasn't the first time I've slept with a girl that reminded me of Kara and I felt ashamed about it every time but I couldn't help it. At the end of the day Kara still plagued my mind.

I found myself walking mindlessly until I realized where I was. Kara's apartment. Somehow I have a large pizza and box of potstickers. I shouldn't be here right now but something in the back of my mind kept bringing me back to her. I knocked on the door and sucked in a deep breath. I was just about to walk away when a confused Kara opened the door.

"Jordan?" She said surprised. "What are you doing here? Come in." She says ushering me inside. She grabs the pizza and sets it on the kitchen counter. "So." She starts with a small smile. That smile that I fall for every time. "What brings you here?" She asks me and I shrug my shoulders.

"I honestly don't know." I said truthfully. "I can leave if you want." I said fairly quickly.

"No." She says loudly before clearing her throat. "Sorry. I mean you're here now why don't you stay?" She asks me and I nod my head but then she looks at me curiously. "How did you find me?" She asks suspiciously.

"Yeah it wasn't that hard." I told her with a soft chuckle and I see her eyes light up. Dammit, maybe this was a mistake. "Why don't we eat. I got a large cheese pizza and some potstickers." I said smiling and I see the happiness engulf her features. I loved seeing her like this. We grab the food and sit at her dining table.

"How did you know I liked potstickers?" She asks me and if only she remembered all the times I bought her potstickers after school during the last year we were together. "The first time you got everyone food you handed me a big container of them." She points out and I know just how to fix this.

"I saw a receipt that fell out of your pocket for a ridiculous amount and I just took a wild guess that it was for you." I told her and her face flushed from embarrassment. Although it didn't take a genius to see through the lies. So I wonder if she just played along for rig by now.

"So you can be nice." She says to me and I scoff playfully.

"Yeah, yeah. Whatever." I said huffing out. "Just for you." I said and her face went red. "And Kenzie of course." I added so it wouldn't be weird.

"I know this is crazy to say especially since we haven't had that many conversations but I feel like I've known you my whole life." She says in content and I wish I could tell her but I need her to figure it out on her own.  Even if she did remember me I couldn't stay. The more I lingered around the more I fell in love with her all over again.

"Yeah, I have that kind of effect on people." I say chuckling and she throws a potsticker at me which I catch and then eat. "Thanks." I said blowing a kiss in her direction playfully and I could see the faint blush on her cheeks. Dear, god. I have problems.

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A/N:
Guess who's been sick the past month😭 on top of that I'm the only mechanic at my job right now for the holidays so I've been going through it😭 sorry this chapter isn't the best but it's a quick filler. The next one will be longer and hopefully better.

Happy holidays everyone 😙