Destined Soulmate

19.

●SIDDHANT

Was I jealous today?
But why?
There is no reason for me to be jealous. Dev was just talking to her.
But he said he liked her. But he is married, so it doesn't matter, right?
No, it matters he can't say that to my wife.

"SIDDHANT," Diya yelled my name.

"Yeah," I answered, breaking the chain of my thoughts. I think I have started over thinking again.

"Where are you lost? I have already called you five times. It's dinner time. Let's  go." Diya said in a single breath.

"Hmm, let's go." I responded, still lost in my own thoughts.

"Are you OK, Sid? You look worried." The look of concern was visible in her face. I don't know how, but we are quite  close to each other now.

We talk to each other about random things. Nowadays, Diya even shares the office gossip with me, which is quite entertaining, to be honest.

"Sid?" Diya called me again.

That's the best part she calls me Sid more than she realises.

A smile finds the way to my face as I hear my name in her sweet voice. I don't know how and why, but I am getting addicted to her voice, her smell, her company ,everything that's related to her.

"I am OK," I answered, looking into her eyes. I wish I had the power to stop the time so that I could just keep on looking into her eyes. Because she won't let me do that.

"Let's go then," she turned away from me as she realised I was looking into her eyes. Wish I could maintain our eye contact.

We moved towards the dining table, and I don't know why, but I have the sudden urge to place her face between my palms and just stare at her.

Is that normal?
God, something is wrong with me.

I should talk to my therapist. But what would I say? That I have the urge to look at my wife. It's complicated to make others understand.
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It's 11:55, and I am still awake. But unlike other days, I am not working. I am just sitting, not able to decide if I should  wish Diya at midnight or not? Will she think that's weird?
What if she thinks I am creepy?
Wait, why will it be creepy? I am her husband, after all.

Fuck!! All this is so confusing.
Why is my relationship with her so complicated? It's not like we are in random situationship we are legally married.

Vijay took his wife on a trip for her birthday, and they were not even married then.They were so casual about it , so why not me.

Maybe because of my own action. What was the need to mark our marriage as marriage of convenience? Why can't I keep my mouth shut?

Aghhhh! Someone help me.

The clock struck 12 as I was getting mad. I got up from the sofa and went to her side of the bed. She is sleeping so peacefully. I shouldn't wake her up. I decided.

"Happy birthday, Rose." I gently whispered and moved to my side of the bed.

As soon as I lay on the bed, her phone started ringing.

Even after a few rings, she didn't pick it up. The rings stopped.

After a while, it rang again. But she was still asleep. The rings stopped again.

I tried to sleep but got startled by the sound of her phone. It was ringing again.

I got up and but it didn't show who was calling . Maybe it's urgent.