Taking the Wrong, But Right Risk (1D fanfic)

Chapter 12

*Chapter 12

*Charlie's POV*

I woke up the next morning in Harry's bed, which made sense considering that's where I fell asleep. Harry was sitting up and awake next to me and reading a book. I moved around a little to stretch out.

"Good morning, beautiful," Harry said looking at me and smiling. 

I crawled over to him and sat on his lap sideways so that I could slip my arms around his neck. Harry chuckled at my actions and set his book down so he could wrap his arms around me.

"Can I ask you something?" he asked.

"You just did," I joked.

"I'm serious though. You don't have to answer, but I wanna talk about what happened after Zoe's passing. I want to hear from you what I heard from Sadie. I won't believe it until you tell me," Harry said.

"Harry.." I said trying to get out of his lap and leave the room. "Now is not the time to talk about it."

"If we don't talk about it now, we never will and you know it," he said not letting me leave his lap.

"I'm not ready to tell you. I don't think you realize how hard it is for me to tell you all of the mistakes I've made."

"BOYS I CAN HEAR YOU IN THE HALL. JUST COME IN," Harry yelled.

All of the sudden four boys walked through the door and sat on the bed in a circle. I got out of Harry's lap and sat inbetween him and Zayn.

"Are you ready to tell us?" Liam asked looking at me with care.

"No. Why don't you understand that?!" I said with my voice cracking. I crawled off of the bed and walked out of the room.

I could hear the boys calling my name, but I didn't care. I didn't want to talk about it. I don't understand why they didn't get that. I walked into my room and slammed the door. I sat on the edge of my bed and stared at the wall. My door opened a couple of minutes later. I felt my bed droop next to me. I didn't bother turning to see who it was. I couldn't look them in the eye.

"You can tell me. I won't treat you differently," Louis said rubbing my back.

"It was my fault. I couldn't take it anymore, but I never meant to do the things I did. I'd get drunk. I-I smoked for a bit. I even smoked things I shouldn't have..." I said quietly. I let a tear fall down my face as I remembered how I was. Louis picked up his hand and wiped away my tear.

"You mean you did drugs?" He asked. I could hear the disappointment in his voice and it caused another tear to fall down my face. I knew the tear confirmed the question.

"Only once or twice. Samuel and Nick saved me before I got addicted."

"Is that why you have nightmares?" Louis asked.

"Probably. I don't remember much because I was drunk all of the time, but only on weekends. I couldn't let my future go to waste. And when you were suprised about how much I could drink that's why...... I'm sorry that I messed up," I said quietly squeezing my eyes shut.

I felt a kiss on my forehead while my eyes were shut. When I opened them, Louis was off of the bed. He was in the corner of his room ruffling his hair with his hands. You could tell he was frustrated. I laid down on my stomach and burried my face in my pillow.

"I still see you as the same beautiful and amazing girl. I won't tell the boys what you told me. Right now I am just kicking myself for not being there or calling. I just dissapeared, but that won't ever happen again. I promise. I love you, Charlie," Louis said before leaving my room.