I Love My Best Friend ~ A Twenty One Pilots Fan Fiction~

Are You Serious?

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Josh's p.o.v.

Tyler and I are going on two weeks without any trouble. We had finished our tour and we are almost done writing our next album. Tyler has two more songs to write and we can release it May 19th. Problem is Tyler is having a hard time finding the right words to flow into his songs. I would help him but I know nothing about song writing.

I had moved in yesterday and left my room to find Tyler. He was in his room on his keyboard slaving away at composing his lyrics. Unlike his usual tapping at the keys, he was hitting them more rhythmically. I already started planning how I wanted to pound on the drums after hearing a couple of bars.

I look over his shoulder and see his composition written on a crumpled piece of paper with a tiny pizza grease stain. I read the lines after the chorus of his first song titled "We Don't Believe What's On T.V." From what I could see he had wrote " I don't care what's in your hair, I just wanna know what's on your mind, I used to say I want to die before I'm old, but because of you I might think twice." Wow he is so sweet. That was an obvious reference to me.

The whole time I was in his room he hadn't really acknowledged my presence and that kinda bothered me so I tapped on his shoulder. He still didn't really respond so I did it again. This time he looked at me a bit more irritated and it sorta scared me. He fully turned his whole body to face me and he said "Here.." and he gave me sheets of paper that had lyrics and the title was "Tear In My Heart".

I started reading the song and got to the chorus and second verse. "She's a tear in my heart. I'm alive. She's a tear in my heart. I'm on fire. She's a tear in my heart. Take me higher than I've ever been. You fell asleep in my car I drove the whole time. But that's ok I'll just avoid the holes so you sleep fine. I'm driving here I sit cursing my government for not using my taxes to fill holes with more cement."

I caught myself with tears in my eyes because I knew what this song was about. Tyler had written a song about Jenna. I see in the corner a date that Tyler had written when this song was created. It was dated four days ago and the song that was written about me was written two weeks ago when we first started dating. That means Tyler still has feelings for Jenna. Are you kidding me?!

I take my song and rip it to shreds. I don't understand how Tyler could still even like her. I didn't even have the energy to talk to him about it so I went to my room and packed a bag. I storm out of the house and just drive.

I go back to that cove that I went when I discovered my feelings for Tyler. This time I just stay on this huge cliff. I'm sitting on the edge and I slowly stand up. I close my eyes and jump into the water with my clothes still on. I stay under the water for a second. My tears mix with the salty ocean and I come up for air. I turn on my back and float back to shore.

I change clothes and I see the sun setting. I don't really have anywhere to go so I stay in my car. I look down to see my phone screen lit up with a notification from Tyler. He had texted me but I didn't want to see it so I just tossed my phone onto the passenger seat.

This sucks. I recline my seat and try to get some sleep. I struggle and decide it's pointless to even try. I sit there the whole night wide awake thinking about Tyler.