I don't Love you anymore by Rithvik singh

part 7

Your absence did so much to me, but it couldn't undo how I feel about you. I want to send you the poems that rip my heart apart and write you poems for when your heart gets too heavy. Turn your soul into a sunflower field and ensure you never run out of light. Love you on the days when life stops making sense and also on the days when it does. Hold you closer than the moon holds its shine, the ocean holds its depths, and temples hold statues of the divine.

There are people who love you, but not in the way you love them. Their love is platonic. And when you fall in love with such people, they push you away instead of asking you to stay. Not because they don't care, but because they care too much. Because they know how much your heart would break if you didn't walk away. Because they know your feelings aren't butterflies that'll die in a few weeks. Thank them for teaching you how to save someone by not being there to save them. By letting go of them, even if it breaks their heart- to save them from further damage while always wishing them well, but from a distance. Trust me, staying in touch with someone you've unrequited feelings for is the worst thing you can do to your heart.

Nothing breaks hearts quite like the silence of loved ones a quiet declaration that they're tired of trying to love you for who you are.

And when they refuse to choose you, choose distance. Because staying won't make a difference. I know those feelings are precious, but, my love, so is your heart. So is your heart.

Loving someone shouldn't feel like a tug of war where you're always fighting for their attention. It shouldn't feel like a race you've to win, at the end of which lies the trophy of affection. It shouldn't feel like a sale at a store where there are too many people wanting the same person you want. It shouldn't have to feel like a fight or war. You shouldn't have to constantly struggle to make space for yourself in their heart. If there are too many people they'd rather be with than you, they don't deserve to be with you. Love is not a trophy you've to fight for but a gift someone wants to give you every day without you having to ask them for it.

You've the spirit of a bird. Falling doesn't stop you from flying. And that's what I love the most about you you always keep trying.

You can never teach your heart to be okay with saying goodbye. Losing them will make you cry-sometimes for weeks at a stretch. It will make you lose a little faith in love and people. But losing them shouldn't make you give up on the magic of healing. Of letting hope re-enter your heart. Of wanting to be okay again. Of learning to live without them and smiling just the way you used to with them and before them. They'll always matter to you, but you need to choose yourself for yourself, and for the people you still matter to.

When someone is breaking someone's heart, do they forget that the other person loves them? Do they not think about what they're doing to the person's heart? Does sleep not elude them, knowing someone isn't okay because of them? Are they too used to breaking people to care about how they're going to deal with it? Do they not have a heart?

You're staying with them because you're scared of being heartbroken, but tell me, aren't they already breaking your heart every day?

Writers think they're too powerful until they realize they can write poems all they want, but that person still won't feel the same way about them. Expressing your feelings is a superpower, you see, but sometimes your feelings can leave you feeling powerless, too.