I don't Love you anymore by Rithvik singh

Part 11

When feelings are flooding inside you, remember that floods consume and break things. Don't let your heart be one of them.

You're not the light that guides people back home. You deserve to be the person who is someone's home. Not a glimmer of hope to take them out of the dark, but a permanent place brimming with warmth for both of you to stay.

Spending even a day without you terrifies me. As if my life is a game of Jenga and you are the only wooden block keeping it from falling apart. I'm learning to accept that falling is a part of my journey, but you're definitely not my destination. And I'll let go of you, even if that means having to start from scratch all over again.

Someone can have the biggest heart but still refuse to make even a little space for you in it. They can be capable of loving someone enough to turn them into a Pablo Neruda poem, but not feel anything for you at all. You can love them enough to decorate your heart with everything they love, paint every inch of your soul with their favorite colors, but that won't change how they feel about you. Sometimes people don't want your love even when you believe there's nobody capable of loving them as intensely as you do. The truth is, there are some feelings you'll always feel alone, and one day, you'll stop trying to make them feel the same way as you do and give your love to someone else- someone who knows how to value your heart.

Remember that one breakup text you didn't send for the longest time because you cared about that person more than yourself?

They were taking you for granted, but you didn't want to break their heart. You kept saving them, at your expense, until one day you decided to hit 'send' and let it go-only for them to say that it was you who never cared about them.

The people you love are often the ones who end up making you feel horrible about yourself.

You were in fifth grade when that relative told you your skin tone isn't ideal- you're not smart like your sister and don't have much to offer. You were in seventh grade, and by that time, the message had been repeated so many times that you started believing it. That friend who 'jokingly' told you that you cannot get dates and kept talking about how she, on the contrary, could get anybody she wants. You were at a wedding, and your father told you how that outfit looked funny on you.

Nobody talks about how difficult it is to love yourself when the people around you constantly make you feel unworthy. You may be the kindest person in the world, but that won't ensure the world is kind to you, too. Self-love doesn't come easily to most people, and in most cases, the person has nothing to do with it it's the people around them that are responsible for the same.

Funny how we love to hate the people who failed to love us back.

What good is this heart if it cannot be with the person it beats for?

You lose friends and you don't even notice it until you see an old photograph of you and them, and realize that they're not in your life anymore. That friend who sat next to you every day in middle school. That friend whose landline number you still remember. Friends with whom you played during the 'games period' in school. Friends you shared your lunch with. The ones you invited to your birthday parties when you were little. It's strange how we just lose people over time even the ones who were once the closest to us.

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