L̸͟͞o̸͟͞c̸͟͞k̸͟͞e̸͟͞d̸͟͞ A̸͟͞w̸͟͞a̸͟͞y̸͟͞❀

Chapter 35

                        ✫R̸u̸l̸e̸s̸☆

Amy has been with Richard for nearly two weeks, and she’s still trying to adjust to all the new things that come with being with him. At first, the excitement of being with someone so attentive and caring was exhilarating, especially since they were very close before, but now it’s becoming overwhelming. Richard has a way of wanting to be involved in every aspect of her life, and while she appreciates his enthusiasm, it’s starting to feel a bit suffocating.

For instance, he insists on choosing her outfits every morning, meticulously picking out clothes that he thinks will look best on her. At first, she found it sweet that he wanted to help her look her best, but now it feels like she’s losing her own sense of style. She misses the freedom of choosing her own clothes, the comfort of slipping into her favorite jeans and a cozy sweater without having to consult him first.

Then there’s the hair styling. Richard has taken it upon himself to experiment with her hair, trying out different styles that he believes will enhance her beauty. While she appreciates his creativity, she sometimes longs for the simplicity of just letting her hair down and not worrying about how it looks. The constant changes and adjustments feel like a performance rather than a natural expression of herself.

And then there’s the cuddling. Richard seems to want to be physically close to her at all times, whether they’re watching a movie, cooking dinner, or just sitting on the couch. While she enjoys the warmth of his embrace, there are moments when she craves a little space to breathe, to think, and to just be herself without the pressure of intimacy. It’s as if he’s trying to create a bubble around them, and while she understands the desire for closeness, it sometimes feels like she’s losing her individuality in the process.

She missed him yes, and he missed her as well. It’s an unspoken connection, a thread that binds them even when they are apart. She understands that this feeling is part of their bond, a testament to the depth of their closeness. But for now, in this moment, they are together, sharing a space that feels both intimate and safe.

She has no intention of leaving; the thought of separation is a distant worry, overshadowed by the warmth of their current closeness. The world outside may be chaotic, but here, with him, she feels anchored. He doesn’t need to cling to her all the time.

After much contemplation, Amy resolved that during dinner tonight, she would take the opportunity to address some long-standing rules and express her discomforts and feelings about being with him after all these years. The weight of unspoken thoughts had been pressing on her heart, and she felt it was time to bring them into the open. She had spent countless nights reflecting on their situation , replaying moments in her mind, and considering how to articulate her feelings without causing unnecessary conflict.

As she prepared for the evening, she carefully chose her words, wanting to strike a balance between honesty and sensitivity. She hoped to convey her thoughts in a way that would foster understanding rather than defensiveness. The idea of discussing their relationship dynamics filled her with a mix of anxiety and determination. She envisioned a calm and constructive conversation, one where both of them could share their perspectives openly.

She only wished he would remain calm and understanding during their conversation. The thought of him reacting defensively or dismissively made her stomach churn. She wanted him to see that her intentions were rooted in love and a desire for growth. Amy hoped that by opening up about her feelings, they could strengthen their bond and create a healthier dynamic moving forward.