I was in love,
I felt the rays of sun and the rainbows shine everywhere I went outside and inside,
as long as it was spent with you by my side.
A year of love and bliss felt so good,
but it hurt to learn half of that was misunderstood.
My heart told me to go but I yearned to stay,
hoping these things in my thoughts would go away.
It slowly tore me apart, piece by piece,
I was told that it would be fixed,
the scars, the tears, everything that was missed.
Although, I knew throughout the year,
I've already felt myself slipping to the point,
I didn't recognize myself anymore, I feared.
However, it remained untrue,
convinced me 10 months for me to turn back blue.
My heart did not hurt the same the first time,
because it was expected being prepared all this time.
So now I await to learn to let go,
and move on before my heart says no.
I was on a throne of lies,
changed myself but I realized,
why did I do this for someone who I despise.
Goodbye forever, my dear beloved,
the memories and lessons I learnt,
won't go unheard.
For now our ties have been lost,
you were just too full of lust.
I hope one day your next girl says,
"I'm thankful she taught you to be a better man",
when that comes,
Then I'll know when I see the sun rays.
My heart longs for Chanel to move on,
but knowing her,
she loves you so much.
I hope one day we will heal from this,
when that happens,
we'll be strangers walking past each other,
but it'll be bittersweet.
