I'm remembering Decembers
In the cold windy afternoons
Hard Lenolium yellow floors and basement doors shutting
I used to hear dogs whining
Barking
Running around
See smiling big dog faces as I opened that door
You were my sadie
The first one
my pillar when I was small
My best dress up companion
Soon those young days turned and suddenly as if I didn't notice
you were gone.
No more hair
No more dog to look for in the dark while going to get water in the middle of the night, I know you'd follow me.
You met Lucas for a bit and fell in love
He was only a puppy when you disappeared
My puppy dog
3 large brown spots caught my eye
Always happy and willing to play
You always won in tough-of-war
My brothers dog you were
Then one night when I opened that basement door you had gotten sick.
17 times
A week, you haven't eaten, oh my puppy where has he gone.
Couldn't walk down the stairs today you looked scared, I couldn't help you.
I look down the steps, your standing there still.
I open that basement door and you're not there,
on a bed you lay
Eye glazed
Surrounded by all of us.
You stopped breathing.
I'd never seen death before, I was always to young to express grief.
You, my beautiful puppy boy, I will never be over.
Your soul sleeps in this house forever
Waiting outside my door my dogs will come, in the middle of the night I know they follow and when I am lost I know my big dogs found me.
