"Don't ask her face to face " Zack insisted after I told him all about what I heard at school. "What should I wait for? I've already heard her. What more powerful evidence should I bring you?" I asked him yelling cause I've had enough. "Listen to me, Ash. Facing her isn't the right thing to do." he said quietly. The right thing to do? The right thing? I'm facing that nightmare again "Oh! please, don't talk like my mom" I said. He jumped out of his chair "No no. I'm not talking like your mom" he said instantly, like he was trying to defend himself as I'm accusing him of murdering someone. That sounded weird but I didn't say anything. I took my bag and left. I'm not going to change my mind. I'll face Hayley.
Next morning at school, I waited for the lunch break. "Nice food" Nina said sarcastically . "Yeah" Jessie replied, absent-mindedly, playing with her fork. "Can I talk to you?" I asked Hayley as I took hold of her arm, she grabbed her arm quickly and walked to a nearby corner. "What?" she asked, folding her arms, and I raised an eye brow surprised by her sudden arrogance. "To cut a long story short, darling, I heard what you said to Brad and I swear if you don't tell me what happened, a record of your nice conversation with Brad will be handed to the cops, tonight" I said aggressively. "Is that a threat?" she said with a half smile on her face and that pissed me off. I didn't say anything, I was waiting for her to give me an explanation. "Look! sometimes things are better for you when they aren't clear" she said tapping my shoulder and left.
Hayley isn't afraid. Perhaps she knows that the case is closed, anyway. But I think something like a record will open the case again. I know nothing about law and stuff, though. I returned back to our lunch and Hayley was still looking at me. I guess she regrets what she said because she's afraid now. I can't believe that Hayley, the girl who I have know for years, is acting this way. We've all grown up into different people but this innocent girl is helping a murderer!!
"I'm sorry" is all I said when Zack opened the door. He didn't let me in, he just took his jacket and got out of his house. He walked silently and I followed, I don't know where he's going, but when he stopped I sadly recognized the place, it's where we first met, the same view that always reminds me of Lux. The blue river and the bright sun are grieving for Lux. A tear escaped my eye unwillingly. I've tried to hold back those tears for so long but my feelings started a rebellion and succeeded to let this tear escape out of the prison that I built for it and smash the hard wall that I hopelessly built around my heart. It's all useless, no matter what I do and how hard I try to be stronger I'll never get over Lux . I didn't want to cry for her and I don't even want to think about my loss but my heart won the short war.
"Don't" he said as he noticed the tear. He gave me a tissue to wipe away my tears but I can't help but cry harder and louder. These tears aren't for Lux only, they're also for Hayley, Brad, Sasha, mom, dad, Emma and Emily who have changed a lot with me and Edward who keep hurting me unnoticeably. "I killed her" the words slipped out of my mouth. He placed his hands on my shoulders and talked to me like a father " It's not only what we do that matters, it's also how we feel" he said. I waited for his explanation. He inhaled and started talking again in his fatherly tone "You may have pushed her but there's no way in hell that you meant it. You have no right to say that you killed her. You have pushed her, but you weren't happy about it. That's what matters, you're sad about it, Ash. You feel terrible and you've cried yourself for days, you locked yourself up, you skipped school and that's enough. You feel your loss, so it was unintended. You have done nothing wrong at all." he looked at me for a while "When you believe in fate, things feel better" he finally added. His words are always easy to understand, simple and reveling. He knows exactly how to treat people, he knows exactly what they want to hear. Magic, is the perfect word to describe his words. I wiped away my tears but the wound is still there.
Ever since I knew Zack, that person got weaker. I mean she hasn't sneaked into my bedroom to put a hat my on it or re-played a song till she scared the hell out of me. She hasn't whispered into my ears causing me to kill the person I loved the most. She just left me a note and a phone but never the same powerful haunting that she used to do.
I arrived home and received a new message on my phone. *Was about to visit but didn't want to interrupt ur picnic lol * that was Edward hurting me intendedly with his words about me and Zack. The phone vibrated again announcing another message. It's from an unknown number *If you truly love them, take care*
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Hidden Investigations (#Wattys2015)
Mystery / Thriller"Do what's right" my mother always said... A normal girl goes to high school ready for her usual classes until it's announced that another student was murdered in a mysteriously. That's when her life is turned upside down
