My Best Friends Emo Brother

That One Hug

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Chapter 3

Blake's pov.

I need to pull away.

I should pull away from her soft and warm embrace. But I can't find the will power to. I need to pull away because if we hug, we could become friends. And I can't have friends. I won't allow it. Her tiny hand runs circles on my back, in attempts to comfort me. For once, I let down my wall and burrow my face in her neck. My nose touches her skin and she shivers, interesting. We hug for a few more minutes before my mind kicks back in. I pull away so fast, as if she was on fire and burned me. "What?" She asks in a confused voice. I must lie.

"Why the fuck you hug me? I don't want you near me ever again!" Well, that wasn't a lie. She is still a bitch and I still hate her guts! But that hug brought my wall down, the wall I have built up after so many years. "What?" She asked again, but her voice was in a gasp. Her eyes get teary and I force my glace to the wall behind her. I was a horrible, cruel, selfish, hurt and many other thing's... but I can't stand to see someone cry. Even if I hate them.

"Leave! I thought you would get the message! Oh, I forgot. Your tiny, useless mind doesn't understand anything!" I shout at her. I knew that I hated her, and I thought it would be easy to say this. I have said worse to her, even hit her. But this... was hard. Seeing her hurt face, made me feel like a monster. It shouldn't though; I have worse and felt nothing but grin. But now... it was because of that hug. That's what I am going with and sticking to!

Tears went down her face like streams. She mumbled something I couldn't hear and I didn't stop her when she left. I have made her cry before, but before it felt good. It felt good to not be the only one hurting. But this...this felt wrong. I never should have let her hug me. And I won't let it happen again. Because of that one hug, I have to build up my walls again. I almost broke. I almost let her in.

Problem is...I want to hug her again. The hug felt warm, soft, comfortable, sweet and worse of all...safe. I feeling that I learned will never come back. A feeling that I thought I never had to worry about. I felt that exact feeling. And since I haven't felt in awhile, it came 10x stronger. It came at me like a lightning bolt. And I still felt it. It was a warm, fuzzy feeling at the pit of my stomach. A feeling that made my toes curl and made me bite my lip.

In other words...It felt like a taste of heaven...

To bad I will never feel it again. The fuzzy feeling made my eyes flutter close. "MMmmm..." I moaned in delight. I knew I shouldn't be taking advantage of the situation but...I couldn't help it. I knew that if I loved this feeling too much, I would want it again. And if I wanted something THAT much...I would have to have it again. And that means another hug; another hug meant...it meant that I could brake again. Fall into that delicious feeling.

Speaking of delicious, she smelt good. Like cinnamon and vanilla. A intoxicating smell that I want more of, WAY more of! Now the fuzzy feeling disappears and I finally come back to my senses. I got to stop thinking like that!!! "Blake? Are you in there?" I heard Riley's voice outside my door. "What?" I don't try to put hate in my voice. I leave it to it's normal tone. "Can I come in?" She says. "Ya...sure." I mumbled.

She opened my door and sat her self down at the end of my bed. "What is it?" I asked, looking at my nails. I feel her eyes on me, more like looking at my cheeks. "Your blushing....?" There was surprise in her voice. I couldn't be... I rush to my mirror. HOLY SHIT! I AM! I look at my cheeks, they are blossomed with redness. "Oh my god..." I trailed off, not knowing what to say.