Jesus Loves You

06 | God Has Planned

I used to think how beautiful the life of a normal believer is.

I wanted to live that life. I wanted to live a life of peace where I can make money through writing and make my parents proud of me. It was a good idea to me, but at that time, I was unaware of my hidden talent that God gave me. 

Writing, of course.

I used to sing. It was my passion, actually. I was deeply connected to music and wanted to learn to play instruments and all. 

You see, at that time, people were crazy about a Korean boy band group. I was one of those girls. I was obsessed with them. I had such weird dreams like I wish I was a Korean. Oh no! Today as I remember those days, I learn how crazy I was! 

I was madly obsessed with them, like any other girl and I don't want to give much details because it makes me pathetic and I'm going to laugh hard while mentioning it. Leave it. But it was really pathetic!

Because of them, I wanted to become a singer. Let's say, I wanted to become a Korean singer and I shared this thing with God. At that time, I couldn't hear God's voice. I just talked to Him randomly, that's all. There was a deep realization within me that I can talk to Him because He listens.

But I never knew I'd become a writer and discover writing as my real passion.

I may confuse some people now. May God help you. For God is not a God of confusion but of peace. As in all the churches of the saints, — 1 Corinthians 14:33, ESV.

You see, Satan is a liar. What God has planned for you, Satan will try his best not to let it reach you.

So many people die without knowing the will of God in their lives. Satan plays the role here. He keeps people in ignorance and they never learn why they were made and they die. God wants us to know why He created us.

See what God says here, For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. — Jeremiah 29:11, NIV. See, God has a plan for all of us.

Satan wants to distract us from that purpose. He first keeps us in ignorance. If not, then it is easy for him to lie to us and make us believe we are made for something else. If not, then he is ever ready to end our lives.

I don't say you cannot do anything except for what God has planned for you. You can do it. But the thing is, why were you even created?

I was made to glorify God through writing, not singing. There can be people He has chosen to sing for Him and worship Him. For me, it was writing.

I was unaware of it until God made me see it. When COVID-19 came and the lockdown happened, it was a moment given to me to explore myself and learn what my real passion was. There I found books to read, and while reading them, I felt this urge to write also. I was fourteen at that time and I knew I could do it. 

For someone who speaks less but has a mind full of thoughts, writing is like a blessing. I am glad God made me see it.

Yes, I can do other things, too, but writing is something different. It makes me feel I was actually made for it. 

But Satan here also did not let me do as God likes. I found romance books and I read them. I was new at that time, so I avoided reading smut. It was too much for me. Also, being unable to forget my past, I just stayed away from such ideas. 

But as I grew up and I learned more about writing, I also began reading those wrong books. I just spoiled my mind. 

You know, what I hated secretly—older men—those books made me go after them. I found this new obsession which was a lie pushed into my head through my ears by Satan that I was made for it.