Jesus Loves You

07 | The Lord Is Good

When I started writing, I went astray from God.

The innocence of our relationship was gone. I didn't seek him as I used to.

I used to wake up at four in the morning to read the Bible. I had to hide from my family members and read the Bible and for this Book, I could do it flatly, without any remorse. You know, it was fun!

But after I went into writing and exploring new books — immoral and dark — I had to create a distance between me and God.

Let us say, Jesus and I walked along and came to a point where the paths split into two. I left His hand and left without saying anything and did as I enjoyed. 

It took me years to learn to write neatly like a writer. All because of Jesus, I must say.

I still remember the moment I was a kid. I was in second standard and a teacher called my father and insulted me because I didn't know English and I couldn't read it well. 

I don't remember if he said anything to me. But as he came back home, he started spending time with me and teaching me how to read English. He corrected my pronunciation and made me revise spellings. 

After that, it changed. I remember who actually set this discipline in my life to teach me well. Of course, Jesus.

How do I know this? Actually, He keeps revealing things to me and I enjoy learning things. 

Even as I grew up, He took care of my studies. I already wrote how He put me under strict teachers to keep in discipline. It wasn't always about discipline. He had a plan for my life.  

Even when I used to write, He spoke into my ears corrections. He led me to the websites and apps where I could find and learn more about writing. Even through the Bible, yes, the Bible taught me writing, a beautiful way of describing one's feelings. 

Through David, Solomon, and Hosea. Not only these three but other prophets, too. I would read their pieces of art and feel my heart melting within my chest. Wow.

So, you see, Jesus was my Tutor. I can say, walking with Him has taught me countless things and I'm still learning. It feels lovely. This is the only relationship where I'm not controlled. I'm free, and Jesus is the only person to me with whom every second feels even more beautiful. 

You all know, we learn about people and we end up disliking them even more but it is not so about Jesus. Even the more you know Him, the deeper and strongly you fall in love with Him. 

No addiction can be as sweet and intoxicating yet lively as being with Jesus, I'm telling you. 

Or else why did David say, O taste and see that the LORD is good: blessed is the man that trusteth in him. Psalm 34:8, KJV?

When I was depressed and the devil started showing me his true color — how horrible he can be — I fell so deeply into melancholy that I'd overdose on my medicine just to have a good nap. 

Those days—uff! 

If I tell you honestly about the condition of my mind, I still remember the time of heavy summers. After twelve, it was bright outside my house and I'd look at the brightness from my room, sitting in a corner with my arms hugging my legs. 

I used to see that all with blankness and wonder when rain would come and cover this sky so that the sun might be concealed through the heavy clouds. I waited for the sky to mourn so that I'd behold it, but you see, in summers, it doesn't rain. It takes a few more months for rain to arrive. 

Until then, one thing kept rewinding inside my head like a broken tape record that I'd see myself running to the balcony of my house and jump from there.