Jax x Reader ~Enemies to Lovers~

Chapter Fourteen: Maybe I do care.

Day Four.
How do I put today into words? Maybe with the adventure we had first. Caine told us we were going on some nature walk and it seemed like it was going to be a mostly chill adventure. Zooble didn't want to go on the adventure at first, but I convinced them after I genuinely listened about their body dysmorphia. Zooble seemed genuinely grateful that I was listening to them, and it made me feel happy to finally kinda relate to a character in this digital hell.

Then we started the adventure, which started out very peaceful. But as time progressed, I noticed Jax looking more distraught than normal, same with the beginning of the day when he was pacing back and forth (I still don't know what THAT was about). So I wanted to check up on him, but he claimed he was fine and made me feel stupid for even trying to comfort him. But...that's also when we noticed that we were left behind from the group.

We started walking, hoping to catch up with them, but to no avail. I was starting to get frustrated, and Jax was as well, but that wasn't until we heard Kinger's scream, which came from the forest (but we didn't fully know that yet). We were running, thinking that we were finally getting close to the group, only for me to realize this path has been one big circle the entire time, almost like the path was warping as time progressed.

We made up our mind to go into the forest, only to realize the practical death trap that place was. The thorns and branches can easily tear open our digital skin, making this glitchy stuff come out. We figured that out when a branch cut open my arm, though Jax assured me that Caine could easily fix it. But I swore I heard some form of concern lacing his tone, but I digress.

Soon we ran into Gangle, and then Kinger. After a while, we were reunited with the rest of our friends and we started walking again to a potential exit within that digital forest. That's when I heard something that made me suddenly panic: Jax screamed. Like, an agony-filled scream. I turned around and saw him clutching his side in pain as he fell to the floor.

THEN Caine decided to appear and end the adventure, healing Jax's hip and my arm. Though, Jax was still unconscious from the sudden jolt of pain he probably felt earlier, which may have been a shock to his system since I doubt these people have felt physical pain in a long time (at least, that's my theory). Caine chose me to carry Jax to his room, and I placed him on his bed and everything. So...needless to say, today was way too eventful for my liking and basically an emotional rollercoaster. God, I hope tomorrow will be better.

My eyes glanced at the writing that filled one and a half pages of my journal. Just looking at it made me realize how eventful today was compared to the other three days I've been here. From "collecting colorful boxes" and forced into being Jax's partner, to capture the flag and being a part of Jax, Pomni, and Ragatha's team, and lastly from the amusement park where Jax followed me basically the entire time, today was a lot more eventful, which made me wonder why Caine decided to do a "real" adventure from the other games we did before. Unless there is no meaning and I'm overthinking everything.

Though, one question was ever-present in my head, no matter how many times I tried to ignore it: Do I care about Jax? I mean, I must care a little bit to have such an overreaction to Jax being in pain. Sure, the others seemed shocked and distraught, but they didn't look like they had genuine fear like I did.

Knowing Jax though, I doubt he will mention that moment or even talk about it at all unless somebody else mentions it first. But even if they did mention it, parts of me feel like he would shrug it off and pretend he was fine, even if it was obvious he wasn't. I also have another question though, and it's one I will never admit or ask openly but...do I still want to be enemies with him?