I want you. | Taylor Swift x Female Reader

Chapter 11: I'll wait for you

BIG TW! this one contains Rape, but I skiped the part.
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I was sitting on Blakes couch, looking at my phone.

13 missed calls

Tay Bay ❤️

Please call me back

Really let me explain

Iam sorry

Please forgive me

I need you fuck Y/N I love you

Please I can't live without you

Please please please

You're all I have

You make my world worth living

Please just come back.

Sadly I glanced at the messages. Should I go to her? Blake came in the room with only a robe. She looked at me fighting again with my tears. "You should talk with her", Blake crossed her arms and leaned against the door frame.

"Probably", I mumbled. "Can you perhabs drive me home?"

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Twenty minutes later I found myself sitting on my bed on my own, with a vodka bottle. The time passed and I got more and more drunk.

I knew Taylors house was close to mine, so I decided to just walk to her. I grapped some cosy clothes and stumbled outside.

After what felt like forevermore I got to Taylors house. It was freezing cold outside, but since I was drunk I felt warm. Plus I couldn't remember a single thing what happened during the walk only that there was Kai, Jaslyn and Antony and afterwards my shirt was ripped and I had blood tripping down my arm.

I giggled as the doorbell rang. Taylor tip toed to the door and opened it. Her eyes widened as she saw me. "GOSH WHAT HAPPEND", she yelled, her already teary eyes started leaking tears as she pulled me into a hug.

"I fucked with Blake in revenge for you cheating on me", I started laughing, the alcohol made me do this. "Ohhh and I saw your fucking affair while I walked here. With Kai and Antony.. uhh I think I need to throw up", I hovered over the plant which was infront of the door.

After a gag I vomited into it, Taylor just stood there with wide eyes.

"Y/N If only you had listened to me, you would have known that I never betrayed you." Taylor mumbled. "Jaslyn wanted to talk to me and then she touched me and kissed me", Taylor mumbled.

My eyes widened as I heard what she said. "We talk when your sober, but for now you need to come inside", Taylor grapped my arm and went into our bathroom.

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Taylor had cleaned me up, afterwards we went to bed. My head was still spinning around as I fell asleep in Taylors arms.

The next morning I woke up, still in her arms. Everything seemed pretty normal. But a glance in Taylors eyes showed me that nothing was normal nor okay.

Her eyes were red from crying and dark circles marked the skin under them. "Iam sorry Taylor", I mumbled. "Iam sorry too Y/N", she responded. I sat up and looked at her. "Taylor I barely remember anything, but I remember you telling me what happened between jaslyn and you. Iam the one who cheated you did nothing wrong", I layed a hand on her cheek.

"Y/N... I think you got raped. If I-" Taylor started but I cut her off. "Taylor stop. I fucking cheated on you, because I didn't listen", Taylor sat up and looked at me. "I can understand if you want to break u-", now Taylor was the one to cut me off. "Shut up I love you way to much for breaking up with you", my eyes widened as she said this.

"I love you too, but I feel guilty for beeing an asshole", I mumbled.

"And Iam sorry for not listening, Iam sorry for yelling at you and slamming the door. Iam sorry for everything", I looked deep in Taylors eyes.

"Honey Iam forgiving you, how could I not? But your ex hurted you. I want to protect you so fucking much", Taylor said, before smashing her lips against mine.

It was a kiss heavy with unspoken emotions—a desperate clash of frustration, conveyed through the grip of our hands, trembling yet unyielding. It carried a deep, aching love, reflected in the way our eyes lingered on one another, searching for answers we couldn’t say aloud. And beneath it all was remorse, raw and unrelenting, etched into the softness of our lips, trembling with the weight of everything we couldn’t undo.

We pulled away and just kept the eye contact. A tear rolled down Taylors face as she saw me. She looked hurt and I knew it was to early to forgive me. "Taylor be honest you can't forgive me. Not now", I mumbled. Taylor just looked down and I knew what she was thinking.

"I'll wait for you Taylor. I love you", I mumbled before pressing my lips on her forehead. The blonde one looked up and pressed her lips one last time against mine.

"That was a goodbye Y/N", Taylor whispered sad. "I'll always love you", a tear left my eye as I looked one last time in her eyes. "Wait", Taylor said before getting up.

She wrapped a coat around me. "I don't want you to catch a cold", she wiped a strand of hair behind my ear. "Thank you."

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Now I was laying there alone in my bed, in Taylors clothes. The bell rang but I couldn’t get up so I just stayed in my position.

The door of my room opened and a weak look to see who it was made me feel disappointed. It wasn't Taylor.

"Hey pook", he said, before crawling next to me, I turned around, so he was facing my back. "Taylor called me."

My eyes widened as I heard it. She was alone but made sure I wasn't. "Iam such a dick Trav I fucking cheated", I mumbled. Travis sighted before pulling me into a hug. "And you got raped", his voice was sad. "Come back home please, you can live with me", he offered.

"But I said I'll always wait for you to Taylor", I started sobbing again. "If your meant for each other you'll find each other someday again", Travis responded.

"And I can't just leave you here alone", the football player admitted. After laying there forevermore I agreed with moving to Kansas.

A week later I found myself in my new, well old home back in Kansas. Travis had an apartment but it was big enough for us both.

"Does Mom know Iam here?" I asked him while decorating my new room. "Yea Dad and Jason also do", he admitted. "Mhh okay",  with that I let myself fall on the bed. It was an expensive king size bed.

"Are you hungry?" Travis asked me before placing himself on the edge of the bed. "No."

"You've barely ate the last days", he knew all too well what was going on. "Iam not hungry", I responded. "Please you need something to eat", Travis repeated.

I sat up and looked at him; furious. "Can you just shut up? Iam not fucking hungry", I yelled at him, tears started to build in my eyes as I looked at his worried glance. He was the only person that cared for me, yet I treat him like shit. Travis stood up and left the room.

An hour later I decided to apologise so I headed to his bedroom. He wasn't there so I went to the kitchen. And there he was sitting alone, while eating. My heart shattered into thousands of pieces as I saw how sad he looked.

I came closer and placed myself on his lap, before taking his fork. "Iam sorry Travis, I just can't handle my emotions", I pocked around in his food. "It's okay, Break-ups are hard", he whispered in my ear. He made pasta so I took a bit and ate it.

"You're cooking skills are getting better", I laughed, before taking another noddle. "Well Iam glad you like it I made way to much, so we have to eat it the next days", he chuckled, while watching me eat his food.