Diary Devries (Leondre Devries)

Chapter 30

*** TAYLOR POV***

I already feel like I'm not part of this "fandom"

Everything's changing and I don't like it

I've been in a fair share of fandoms and in none of them have I ever felt so unwanted

It was one message after another people started hating me and I don't understand knew why, why all these damn messages

I slowly crawled my way up the stairs I needed to do something... But I promised I never would ever do it again

I can't break my promise not the one promise I made with leondre

Even if he didn't keep the phone call promise
He had never broke any other

I didn't quite make it to the top of the stairs, I collapsed onto the step that moves round the corner the biggest step
Sliding my legs up and tucked my face between my chest and knees and cried I didn't even try to hold them back, I couldn't the ears use escaped from my watery filled eyes

I lost them... I couldn't even go onto Instagram... That one place Leo liked to surprise me most... But the place where the hate was never ending

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The day came when I had finally had enough of the hate... I had learnt to ignore it but then one of the 'popular' fans someone that 'talks to the boys everyday' joined, once she was there everyone was there, I quickly scanned through the account and screenshotted just a few as my notifications were going crazy I ran down stairs to grab my laptop, luckily no one was home so there was no questions about the tears streaming down my face

I opened up the laptop hoping it would load quicker, finally it lit and asked for a password I typed in the password and waited for another few minutes to open and load fully

I logged onto Instagram running through the account once more and came across another time I needed to leave... Leondre was there and he stopped me
"Don't leave
I love you
And Charlie does
Please stay
I beg you"
With a few crying emojis

I can't do that to him again but I can't go through the hate again I just can't but more tears formed in my eyes and soon trailed down my checks

Why don't I block them? Because every time I block someone there's ten more behind them and making new accounts I can't keep up with them

I made up my mind and the account was gone before I could change my mind

Maybe things might get better?