Tom:
✨Mon, Sep 15 2025✨
It was 10:34 I was lying on my bed at the ceiling. I sigh running my hand through my hair. I really am a horrible person, huh? Shit, I should have asked him to hand over his blades. Why do I bully him anyway?
Just then a message pops up on my phone, it's Jack. I sit up grabbing my phone. He wants to relapse? Why? After a few minutes, we decided to wait the urge out. He asked if he could ask me questions.
I told him to go ahead.
Jack: "So, how do you manage to hide your scars in photos?"
It took him like 3 minutes to write that one sentence? My guess is he wrote more but deleted it.
Me: I edided them
Edited**
Jack: Do your friends know about that?
Me: Yeah they do
There were a few minutes where neither of us said anything He must have fallen asleep. I turn off my phone getting ready to sleep. And then my phone vibrates again I picked it up it was Jack.
Jack: So you asked me why I did it so why did you cut yourself?
Me: I wont be answering that 💀
Jack: Oh
Okay
Have you, and you don't have to answer this
but have you ever thought about killing
yourself?
Again you don't have to answer that if you
don't want to
Me:💀
I'm not gonna answer that either lmao 🤣
Jack: Okay
Anyways why do you bully me?
I did not reply to that a few minutes later he sent another message.
Jack: Like what did I do to you
Do you like hate me or something?
Or do you just do it for fun
I just don't get it. ☹️
Me: It was just for fun
Jack: Youre an asshole (don't beat me up for saying
that please)
Me: Yeah yeah I know 😒 you're not the first one to
say that.
Jack: Why are you an assholr? Why are you so
mean? ☹️
Asshole*
Me: Why are you such a loser?
Sorry...
Im trying to be nicer to you so you don't
end up killing yourself
Obviously Im failing tho
Anyways, let's change the subject
Jack: Okay
So what do you do for fun other than bullying
me 😒
Me: I hang out with my friends duh unless they are
busy
Jack: And what do you do if they are busy
Me: It really depends now enough bout me. What do
you do for fun other than being a loser or
studying like a nerd
Jack: You say you're trying to be nicer but you're
still calling me a loser. But I can't really
expect much from a bully 🫤😕
I don't really have many hobbies since my
parents are strict but I enjoy drawing and
photography
Me: Sorry...
Do you still feel like relapsing?
Jack: No actually I'm feeling better I'm gonna go
selep
Selep*
Sleep*
Good night ☺️
Me: Gn
✨Tue, Sep 16✨
Jack was walking down the hall with Fred and Micheal. Sammy walks over and pushes Micheal onto the floor and she starts to bully him. Hilarious if I do say so myself.
Jack was looking around unsure of what to do. People began to gather once someone shouted "Hey look that fa***t is getting beat by a girl" They all pushed Jack and Fred out of the way trying to catch a view of Micheal getting beat up.
I sometimes forget this is a homophobic town. I kinda don't care that much about this though since it was about Micheal who I hate ever so much. I really do hope he gets hit by a car.
As the crowd kept getting bigger and pushing Jack farther away from Micheal I grab him by the arm dragging him to the bathroom. His hand was sweaty...
Once we were in the bathroom I let go of his hand, "Hand 'em over" I say holding my hand out. He looked confused "H-hand what over?" he asked afraid to meet my gaze. "The blades you use to cut yourself with"
His eyes widen a bit but he still avoids making eye contact. He takes out his phone opening the case his gaze still downcast he took out the blades and hands them to me. There was a thick wall of tension between us. The bell rings adding sound to the silent bathroom. "I-I have to go to class," said Jack leaving. As he left I saw that his eyes were glisteny.
I look at the three blades in my hands one of them was not in its little rapper. I throw it away.
✨later✨
During lunch, my friend chatted I stayed silent. Why am I like this? I glanced over at Jack's table he was smiling.
I've never really seen him smile like that. Micheal was next to him it was hardly noticeable but Micheal had his hand slightly around Jack's waist.
What!?
I hadn't noticed but I started eating the inside of my mouth subconsciously. Julia taps my shoulder "Tom, you aight?" I look over at her "Hm?" she gets a bit closer probably thinking I hadn't heard her bc it was loud. "I asked if you were okay, you looked spaced out"
I nod my head "Yeah... yeah I'm fine. Just... thinking." she turned her attention back to the conversation. Meanwhile, my gaze was fixed on Jack and Micheal's arm around his waist.
My vision unfocused and a ringing sound was all I heard. I hardly noticed since I was drowning in my thoughts.
I need a drink.
I refocus my vision standing up grabbing my bag. "Uh... see you guys later I'ma head to class early" With that I make my way out of the cafeteria, heading to the bathroom.
In the bathroom, I reach into my bag grabbing a box. I take out a cigarette from the box and put it back I get the lighter from my pocket putting the flame to the cigarette.
I was leaning against the wall one hand in my pocket the other holding the cigarette between my index and middle finger.
The door to the bathroom opens. Fred walks in slightly glaring at me. "Look, Fred-" I started getting cut off by him "Save it, I don't wanna hear your bullshit" it came out bitterly.
"Fred... look I know what I did was fu-" he cut me off again his tone much more bitter and full of hatred. I could feel the resentment radiating off him. "I said I do not wanna hear your fucking bullshit! What you did was horrible and you know it so you can live with the guilt if you even have any!"
I put out the cigarette sighing as he turned to leave I spoke "Fred wait..." he turned to face me he looked pissed. "How come you haven't told Jack bout Micheal's true colors? Aren't you his best friend. You know how psychotic Micheal can be yet you don't warn your best friend about that bully!?"
He scoffed "You're one to talk. You're a bully too and currently, unlike Micheal. Who by the way I believe has changed for the better something you are incapable of doing! You only change for the worse it's a surprise that anyone even fucking likes you! You know what, I wish, truly that you had been successful with your attempt." With that, he left slamming the bathroom door.
A lump began to form in my throat my eyes wide in disbelief. I do my best to blink back a few tears that threaten to escape. I walk to the sink throwing some water in my face trying to compose myself as the bell rung.
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