I Have Always Been Yours

Want To Come Over and Eat Food With Me?

Walking into history class, I took my assigned seat at the back of the class next to Jesse, of course. This had to be the worst day to be sitting next to him. It's and enough that every other day I sit beside him I laugh, talk, and smile at him like I only want to be his friend. But now that Natalia suspects something, I really have to bust my ass to hide any feelings I have for him.

Just when I thought there was no hope in this situation ending well, I felt a warm breath at the base of my ear that sent shivers down my spine.

"Hello beautiful, you look stunning today. But what else is new," he whispered at my ear with that warm toothy smile that always draws a smile to my face. I turned to meet that smile with a sigh of relief when noticing who it was.

"Why thank you, you really know how to sweet talk a girl," I spoke whilst giving him a hug, "don't you Jason?" He let out a roar of a laugh, and by this time the whole class was turned to the scene we were putting on at the back of the class.

"What are you talking about? You're the only girl I want to sweet talk." Every word he spoke was the truth making my heart rise and my stomach flip with every word he breathed. I couldn't help but melt into his arms when he returned my hug tightly. it was safe, and warm but still felt of a foreign touch.

"Ahem, I hate to break up the love fest at the back of the room but I am not getting payed to watch 2 teens hugging" he sneered "so would you kindly sit down Miss Jordan and Mr McBright?"

"Yes sir, sorry sir" Jason spoke with a sarcastic tone, a little too sarcastic judging by history teacher, Mr. Goldmerps face.

I couldn't help but purse my lips together in attempt to keep the laughter in, but soon the emotion faded when I turned to see the one on Jesse's face. He wasn't impressed by the scene we put on, and most certainly wasn't impressed with Jason. When looking at Jesse all I saw was anger and rivalry, but when he looked at me it all changed to pain and what looked like jealousy. But it vanished all too quickly when he just smiled and turned away. If anyone looked at my face all they would see is confusion, because sure as hell I was.

Every so often I would sneak a peek at Jason and catch myself staring after a while. But how could anyone blame me! He is gorgeous after all. His soft brown eyes and angelic smile is enough to turn even the straightest guys gay. Thick chocolate brown hair all jelled up with thin subtle curls in the front. Kind of reminds you of the way a babys hair curls so easily. He is tall and muscularly built like Jesse. But where Jesse has rugged and chiseled lines to his body, Jason has that of the opposite. Smooth and sleek. Completely different bodies not sure of my preference though.

Speaking of different, their personalities are as different as they can get. Unlike Jesse, Jason has an obvious soft side, always showing it to the world. He doesn't care who sees his weaknesses, because he knows with every weakness comes strength, and the strength in a person is worth waiting for.

The one major difference between he and Jesse, is Jason plays his life safe and doesn't take risks. The reason why I believe Jesse and Jason don't get along. As you can see, Jason is different and I like that about him. It is way to easy to be around him, but still there is something that holds me back, makes me unsure of him. That something is actually a someone, the boy I can't get over. Jesse.

"Class dismissed, thank god" I heard Mr. Goldmerps say as the class laughed at his words," and don't forget about the school car wash tomorrow. Be here at noon, or you will be finding yourself spending noon hour detention with me on Monday!"

Right before I could leave the classroom I felt a hand take mine, pulling me to the side.

"I just wanted to know if maybe tonight you would want to come over and eat food with me?" I saw his face turn red with embarrassment as he said the last words, "I mean, I could make you dinner." Apparently he can call a girl beautiful but when it comes to asking her on a date, that is a completely different story. But i think it is completely adorable.

"It sounds great, however you say it" I spoke with reassurance "I would love to have dinner with you tonight." A grand smile was drawn on his face.

"Great, I'll pick you up at 6," he said then left the class while still holding my eyes with his smile.

I made my way off to my next class with a little happy skip to my walk. I couldn't wait for tonight, this is what I wanted. But I couldn't help but think back to history class. Was it really jealousy I saw in Jesse's eyes? Could he really feel that way? Or is that just what I wanted to see? What i desperately want him too feel? All these questions lead back too 2 very big questions.

1. Could Jesse actually have feelings for me?

2. Could I be falling in love with Jesse or maybe I always was?