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"You think you're different to me, don't you?" I tilt my head, staring at each other's lips.
Without breaking eye contact, he slowly stands, making him in control with the advantage in height. I'm the one looking up at him now.
"And you...
The cheering got louder the more I chugged and when I dropped the empty cup, I felt myself being lifted off the table I was standing on and placed on some random guys shoulders.
I didn't even care who it was as that point, the feeling of the alcohol made this the best moment I've had in a long time. I forgot how good it felt to let loose.
Since my expulsion, I've definitely taken everyone's advice to take this time to reflect on everything. And here's what that led me to: Nothing matters anymore. I lost my chance at valedictorian, no longer play sports and my record is ruined. No chance at an Ivy League with those records.
So thank you Kate Prichard for ruining my life's purpose.
I've picked up a new hobby though so it hasn't been all that bad, college parties are something else. It's too bad I won't be going anytime soon. This is what my life was meant to be. I'll be a party girl who's known for hopping from party to party.
It was a Tuesday evening but when I heard there was going to be another one of these college jock parties, I just had to go. Especially when I heard it was on a yacht. Those are fun.
I've exchanged numbers with some of the college students from these parties I went to the past week. I forgot most of their names at this point but when they texted me, telling me where the party was at, I always went.
"We should dance." One of the guys with the buff muscular arms whispers over the chatter.
"Lead the way!" I told him without even thinking too much about it.
I didn't know who's party this was or who's yacht but it delivered. There was an open bar which had people chugging and drinking, then there was a DJ in the next room, and the speakers were turned all the way up. People were dancing and jumping to the music, they were drunk mostly.
I felt myself bump into many people as this guy took me to the center of the crowd and I felt his hands go down to my waist as the DJ changed the song. I didn't allow myself to think about anything else while I was at these parties. It was a real escape from everything. While everyone else was at school, I was having the time of my fucking life. I was the real winner.
I almost forgot about the guy behind me until I felt his hands, I wasn't too fazed with him but probably because I was too invested in this feeling. It's been months since I've let loose this much, I usually never let myself drink this much, especially on a school day but things have changed in such little time.
