Lovin So Hard (Becstin) #Wattys2015

~24

Becky
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"No why!" I cried as I was watching The notebook while eating a big tub of vanilla ice cream. Tears streamed down my face. As you could see I'm not taking this break up very well. "Becky!" Darcy yelled as she walking into my room. "Leave me alone let me stay and die!" I groaned. She shut off my tv. "No get your ass in the shower and get dress." "Why?!" I groaned. "Because we are going shopping." "I don't wanna go." "Becky!" She snapped. "Fine." I said and got up.

I went to my bathroom and showered. When I fished I got dress. I put on a bra and boy shorts panties. I then grabbed grey sweats and put it on. I grabbed a grey crop top and put it on along with an oversized red flannel. I grabbed my grey Uggs and put them on. I threw my hair into a messy bun and grabbed my phone. I then walked out.

I walked downstairs. "There you happy." Darcy smiled. "Very."

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At the mall we went shopping. Now we were walking towards Finish Line. We walked in and I immediately went to the shoes I had wanted. There was a boy standing right next me. I looked at him and smiled, but it dropped when I saw it was Austin. His dropped as well. I looked down at the floor. "Um I have to go." I mumbled and ran out the store. "Becky!" I heard Austin yell.

He then grabbed my arm and turned me around. "Becks?" Tears streamed my face. He wiped them away and hugged me. I sobbed into his chest. He rubbed circles on my back and kissed my head. I sighed. "I have to go." I said and walked away.

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When I got back home I went to mopping around. I laid in bed in only my big flannel and crop top. I didn't feel like wearing pants. I turned on my tv. I went on my phone and went onto Facebook. I saw Austin's recent post.

"Missing her every single day."

That's about me. I know that sounds cocky but I honestly think it is. I sighed. I turned off my phone and went to my bathroom. I looked in the mirror. I had bags underneath my eyes from not sleeping well. I sighed. I can't believe this is taking such a toll on me. I wish I could just get back to normal. I walked out of the bathroom and walked downstairs. I know I'm not in any pants but I honestly don't care.

I immediately walked to kitchen to get water. I walked back out and saw all the boys and Darcy. My eyes widened. Robert zach and Alex looked away, while Austin stared, but he was looking at me dead in the eyes. I scurried up to my room. I closed the door. The door then opened. I shrieked. Austin closed the door and locked it. I stared at him with wide eyes. He grabbed me by my waist and slammed his lips on mine. I immediately kissed back. He pulled me close to him and kept me there. It wasn't rough or anything, it was slow and passionate. It's like he was savoring every moment of the kiss because it's his last. My hands found his hair. We pulled away. He kissed my forehead and walked out. Leaving me in tears, once again.