Although everyone on this planet might be similar in more ways than one we are all different. So much so that sometimes it freaks us out especially me or makes us want to be someone else. Take me for example. I don't like myself, I just hate looking myself in the mirror, I wish I could somehow change how I look or somehow just totally change who I am because I am bored of who I am.
Like most people, especially teens I couldn't accept myslf for who I am, I just didn't feel comfortable in my own skin, in who I am, I lacked self-love, I didn't see myself as likeable or beautiful, I would let other people and myself break me down, I found it hard to stand up for myself against anyone who tried to hurt me, I hated seeing myself in pictures (no wonder I had none) and I found it hard to compliment or praise myself on anything. There were even moments I wanted to commit suicide.
The reality I came to realised with and came to terms with is that no one on this planet looks perfect nor their lives. Everyone has something about themselves that they don't. We are all flawed. Besides, comparing yourself to someone else sub-consciously knocks your own self-esteem down. When compare ourselves to someone else we look at all the things that person has or is and we aren't or at all they have and we don't. Why don't we just look at ourselves and see that we are unique and were made that way for purpose which makes us who we are and makes us beautiful in our own way. Just imagin if everyone were the same or we were someone we wished we were. This world would definetly be a very boring place to exist on. Just being yourself you'll actually discover, like I already have that people will like and love you for who you are and don't mind those that don't. Their problem not yours. I alwsys have the pleasure of saying that to soneone's face whenever they tell me my voice or my laugh is annoying.
There are ways I have learned along the way that have helped me have a higher self-esteem. I should love myself and believe in myself because then no one else will. I have to comfortable in wbo I am and my body. What I've learned most of all is that I must never compare myself to anyone. I should always focus turning my negative moods to positive, to remain positive and to be true to myself. Others ways I've learned to tackle my low-esteem is to lend a helping hand that way it makes me feel like I'm worth something and it makes me feel happy. I should also be thankful, to think about all positive things around me and just to take time and be grateful for all the things I have. I should live confidently, not fearing that people will judge or ridicule me for who I am.I must never let a persons insult break me down. After all it just one person. Most of all I should have respect for myself, admire myself without ego and to cherish my talents without arrogance.
At times I look to all these things when I feel worthless and useless. When I think about all these things it puts me in a happier mood and makes me feel that I can accomplish anything if I believe and trust myself.
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Pew! Gosh I'm done and it's just shy of midnight. It has been a very tiring week
and I so wanted to update during the week but failed miserably. Atleast I updated so glad :-). And now I have to head to bed because I feel like a zombie.
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