In a few hours this year will come to end. Woohoo! Finally! It's somehow thrilling to know that and somehow scary at the same time. If I can describe this year in one word it would have to unbelievable. Some much and has happened and then again not so much. Which makes me think that maybe it was how things were supposed to turn out.
I've learned so much this year. I've done things I'm not proud of but either way I've learned. I've let my happiness centre around other people which is wrong because I'm supposed to be happy with my self first and not be dependent on someone else for it. I felt so low of myself, so disgusted and worthless that I'd let other people hurt and use me at their will. It's weird how I revelled in it.
I've finally decided that I've had enough of poisoning myself of letting other people hurt me and use me. I cancelled those kind of people out of my life one by one and it feels great. It's feels like a I got rid of all the garbage in my life. I'm learning to love myself day by day and learning to respect myself as a human because I know all my weaknesses which enable me be strong. I've learned that it's okay to be imperfect, to be flawed.
I've decided that next year will be different. I'm no longer going to belittle myself and rather work towards loving myself. I'm no longer going to judge people for who they are. I've learned that if I believe in myself I can do anything. I've realised that the same voice that tells me that I can't is the same voice that encourages me to go for it. I've learned to listen to my instincts, my inner voice because I've realised that it's always right. I've learned that absolutely everything happens for a reason. Somethings, some people are meant to be and others aren't. I've also learned that God doesn't give you anything that you can't handle. Whether it be pain, loss, heartache because He uses these to mould you into a stronger person.
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Hey guys! Okay so this chapter was haphazardly written and it's all over the place. But oh well I didn't exactly planned it out word for word. Either way I'm glad it's written. So this is the last chapter of the book and of the rest of the year or what's left of it.
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