What I Know Now

AND NOW I SEE!

I have suffered from myopia since the 5th grade until today the 22nd of August, until 10 hours ago without the help of spectacles. Living in my own little world where everything is blurry as I see it has its disadvantages and advantages. Let me elaborate.

One of the disadvantages would most probably be that I would sometimes greet the wrong person thinkimg that it was the person I know. Its funny thinking about it now because some people looked alike even though in actual fact they didn't. In return all I would get was a weird facial expression ( the way I saw it). The other disadvantage would be that the only way I could recognise my friends and other people at school by their walk and the backpacks they carried. Sometimes or most of the times I would never know whether a person standing in a distance is talking to me or pointing at me. I would feel beyond embarassed when I talked back to that person I thought was talking to me and they'd weren't. Gosh that was beyond embarassing! What was beyond, beyond embarassingat one point in my math class would be when i was cutting paper and there was a sign against the wall which said it wasn't allowed and which i clearly missed. Then the teacher said I should read it out loud which I refused saying I understood and because I refused to embarass myself than I already did. Lucky the she dismissed that easily. The biggest disadvantage of being myopic started in the 10 th grade when I performed poorly in all my subjects just because I failed to copy down notes. But I somehow passed that grade from a lot of luck and from the knowledge I gathered just by listening during every lesson in every class. By the time I reached the 11th grade and then finally the 12th grade my eyesight deteriorated to the point of me failing both grades on the pretext of nt being able to see clearly to jot down notes. Stupid I know.

Advantages of being being myopic, although suprisingly a few is that I could easily speak infront of a crowd. Another advantages would be that I walked around without greeting people I unless they greeted me first. Trust me with my stuck-up and unfriendly attitude I had, it was definitely a bonus. Even if people greeted me whom I know I wouldn't know.

Today, on the 22nd of August, when I received my spectacles and could finally wear them. I came to realize
many things. The first thing of many is that the world I saw now is that everything is very clear, bright and beyond beautiful. The people I know and saw look very different. It was like I was seeing them for the first time. I could see how beautiful the city I live is (as how I already know but only more beautiful). Even with its dry grass, shrubs and leaveless trees Windhoek never looked beautiful like I've never seen it. For the first I could not only just hear the airoplanes but see them silouehetted against the sky. Looking up in the sky I saw birds like little specks of dust and it looked incredible. Besides all this I was amazed at how I could see trees and shrubs on the mountains surrounding the city. For the first time today I can make out the facial expressions of the person I'm talking to. I can even watch tv while standing further away from the very close position I used to watch tv from. I can brush my hair, apply make-up, write on a book, sweep the floor without missing a speck and type on my phone without squinting. Most of all I will never be scolded by mother dearest because I didn't sweep the floor properly.

Just think. If I staryed wearing specs years ago I wouldn't be where I am today. That is if I'd passed my 12th grade I wouldn't have worked at a daycare with babies. I wouldn't have developed a passion of working with babies and I'd wouldn't love them as my own. I wouldn't have been able to learned how to work with them. I wouldn't be writing this book instead and wouldn't have read the amazing books I have on wattpad because I would be focusing on studying. I wouldn't have met the people I did who have teached me a lot. No wonder people say everything happens for a reason. It definitely makes sense now. If I'd be able to turn back time and redo everything I wouldn't even though there were regrets along the way. What I've learned this year has helped build my character. It has made a person I adore. I wouldn't give up my specs and the ability to see things anew because now I see!

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Hey ya"all. Gosh it has been a rather not so exhausting week but I was definitely anxious waiting for my specs. But ja I can definitely sleep peacefully knowing one problem is off my list. Thank God and all my prayers that were heard. Gosh and its 20 mins shy of midnight. Gotta head off to bed!

Yours in uber-passion about writing

Utopian19