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October 3, 2024 9:30 AM
"Sissy" I heard outside my door followed by a knock.
"Yes" I groaned checking the time, I didn't go to sleep till 6 something. After many hours of on and off crying, because I had to resist going back to his room to cuddle.
"Goodmorning, are you okay?" She asked tapping the door.
"Goodmorning, I'm fine" I lied throwing away all of the dirty tissues.
"Can I come in? You sound like you need a hug and a forehead kiss" She said jiggling the knob. I got up and opened the door before walking back to the bed.
"I'm so tired" I yawned sitting down.
"Aww Sissy, you look exhausted. What's the matter?" She asked sitting in front of me.
"Me and Sin had a little situation last night. I think he got mad at me for asking him to look at me when he was talking.... Well I guess I was telling him. Then he ignored me for almost an hour, he didn't even look at me or touch me for a whole 40 minutes. After we had sec for the first time" I told her mumbling the last part. "Maybe he lied and he didn't really like it" I said as my eyes started burning.
"No ma'am, you could fart in that man's mouth and he'd love it. So that's not it" She said moving closer hugging me.
"So why did he act like that right after? He went from madly in love to ignoring me in minutes" I told her closing my eyes.
"Y'all need to talk, he didn't sleep last night either. He left for work with a frown and puffy eyes. I can say that y'all need to stop trying to separate yourselves as a "punishment"....because y'all always end up torturing yourselves too." She said getting up getting under the cover. "Come on, you need some sleep.
2:15 PM
After waking up alone, I took a quick shower, did hygiene, and made my way to the kitchen. I looked in the living room seeing Sin watching tv. He looked up and and I walked away.
"Baby can we please talk" He asked following me. "Babe please" He begged stepping in front of me.
"Oh my gosh" I mumbled as he backed me into the counter. "Move" I calmly said looking up at him.
"No, I apologize but it's frustrating for me that I can't hold eye contact with you. I do have problems that I'm working on, and they've gotten a lot better thanks to you. I know the readers say I need therapy but I don't want it. I've been and I don't want to go talking to some random about my business. I don't want to be forced to take medication that makes me feel like shit. I'm a 30 year old man, I know what's best for me and I may be broken but I'm not beyond repair Baby. I'm not asking you to be my mama or my therapist, I just need you to be patient with me" He says kneeling in front of me. "I apologize if I made you feel unloved or as if you were getting on my nerves. I thought you were upset at me so I moved, it won't happen again. I apologize for ignoring you and being the reason you didn't sleep last night. I apologize for cussing at you, being childish and most of all I apologize that I didn't come completely healed. I love you Kennedy and I'll do anything to keep you" He said looking up at me with tears in his eyes.
