Hold on 'Till May (Vic Fuentes fan fic)

I woke up, sweat dripping down my forehead, not knowing exactly what had woken me. The silent fades & the beat of my heart matched the tip-tap of rain drops on my ceiling. The nightmare, it haunts me every night. I look accross my bed, onto the small black coffee table. The clock read, 4:15 a.m.. Shit, I was late. I ran too my closet, I threw on a black & red Blink 182 tank, & my black skinny jeans. Along with some red vans. I grab my keys, & run too my car. I loved driving this time of day. No other cars bothering you, the moon shining against the black pavement. I put in my Green Day cd, & my body just falls numb to the lyrics. I drive for an hour everyday to my older brother's house. I have too watch his little girl while he goes too work. I hate waking up, but I would do anything for Adam. Plus, Lainey lights up my day. After the long, tiring drive. I pull onto the curb by my brothers, just as he backs out of the drive way. He honks a goodbye too me, as I wave back. When I get into the house, I see a note on the kitchen table. I was shocked, I knew what chores had too be done, & I knew Lainey's schedule, what did he need too tell me? The note read: "Hey Kat, I wanted too talk too you about this, this morning. But you were running late, so I just thought I would write you. I have some important news too tell you when I get home. I'm working late again tonight, I'm sorry. Just have Lainey in bed by the time I get home. Love you sis. -Adam"

He said "important news"... Was that good news? Or bad news? Before I had too much time too think about it, Lainey had jumped on my back.

"Lainey, what are you doing crazy girl? You're not supposed too be up yet." I said, as I began back too her room.

"Daddy woke me up when he gave me a kiss! & I saw you get out of your car! I missed you boo boo." She said as I lay her down on her princess bed. She calls me "boo boo" because when she was little, we used too watch Yogi Bear all of the time, & she always said I was her 'boo boo'. Don't ask me why she thought that, she's 6.

"Laine, you have too go back too sleep until 8."

"Lay with me boo, please.." She pleaded. I couldn't say no too those big blue eyes. I laid with her until she fell asleep, but not while after, I had fallen asleep too. I was waken by her Dora alarm clock. God, I fucking hate that stupid show.

"Boo!! Time too get up!" She said jumping on me.

"I know Laine, I know." I got up, & I went too her closet.

"Laine, what do you want too wear today?"

" I want too be like Cinderella. I want a pretty dress." I got out her favorite bright blue dress with butterflies all over it. I pulled it over her, then I brushed through her hair. I picked her up, & When I got too the kitchen, I set her down in her special spot on the table. I poured two bowls of ceral, & I sat down. As I began too eat mine, the phone rang.

"Hello..?" I answered the phone.

"Oh hi, Kat." I knew that voice. I hated that voice.

"What do you want Devin?"

"I was hoping too get ahold of your brother. Me & him were going too hang tomorrow, & I have too cancel."

"Okay, I'll tell him." I said as I went too hang up the phone. I heard Devin mumble something, but I wasn't up too hear anything from him today.

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Me & Lainey sat on the couch, both warn out. We were watching her favorite barbie movie. I was going too tell her too go get her pj's on, but when I looked down, she was asleep in my arms. I carried her back too her bedroom, & tucked her in. As I went too sit back down, I saw headlights flash in the window. When Adam walked through the door, I could tell something wasn't right.

"Adam, what is it?"

"Kat, I don't know what I am going too do..." I began too panic. I thought of all of the worst things that could've happened.

"I got fired.. Kat, I'm a high-school drop out, I'm not smart, how in the hell am I going too get another job?!?!?!?"

"Adam, calm down. Go too sleep, you're probably exhausted. We'll talk about this in the morning." I said as I brought him into a hug.

"Kat, I love you soo much. I have no idea where I would be without you. Thank you for everything." He said, I could feel the tears falling down his cheek. I didn't say anything too him about it, I knew it would hurt his pride too much.

I walked out, & I took a breath of fresh air. The drive home took forever & a year. When I got home, I went straight too my room, not wanting too talk too anyone. I shut my door, & lock it. I go too my coffee table. As I open it, I see a blade staring back at me. I grab it, I turn on my music. I lay on my bed, cutting my life away.. It helps cover the pain.

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