Hold on 'Till May (Vic Fuentes fan fic)

Chapter 17

I look up at Vic, still sleeping. I slip out of his grasp & slide over too the other wall. As I sat, looking at Vic, I wanted too cry.. I wanted too so bad. But honestly, I had no more tears. I was just done with everything..

*Vic's P.O.V*

I wake up, my eyesight still blury. I don't feel Kat in my arms, I look around the room to try & find her. Once the realization that she wasn't in the kitchen or living room, I quickly jump up. Now, being fully awake, I run up the stairs. I new she would be in her room, I just hoped too God she wasn't doing what I thought she was.. I walk in too her room, I see her sitting on the ground, behind her bed. As I approach her, I see the blade in her hand.

"Kat! No, please!" I plead, as I fall too her, & pull my arms around her. We stood still, neither of us not knowing exactly what too say.

"Vic.. I couldn't." She said as she pulled away from my hug. "I wanted too.. I feel so numb all of the time.. I feel like I'm not even alive. Like, I'm soo sad that, I feel like my saddness has killed me, & I'm just a skeleton. But when I swipe the blade accross my skin, I can feel something. I finally feel alive, & I feel like I can breath. Please, don't ask me why.. Because I honestly don't know, but I feel happy when I hurt myself.. But you changed everything. Now, I feel alive & happy when I'm with you. & Now.. I can't cut. Damnit Vic." She said the final words as she pushed me & walked over too face the other wall.

*Kat's P.O.V*

I hurt soo bad.. I wasn't numb anymore. It felt like, I was being drowned, but I didn't even have a chance too get free, too breath. But when I'm with him, I'm actually happy. He makes it better.. & That's why I need him too go away. I couldn't have him be in my life.. He was so perfect, I didn't want him too know how bad I really was. But when he walked up & saw me with the blade.. I knew he needed an explanation. I just, I don't know anymore.

"Kat, I love you soo much. I know you have shit going on, so do I. & I know you don't want me too be here with you.. Because now I can see all of your flaws." He says as he come up & sits behind me, pulling me over towards him & wrapping me in his arms. "But all of those flaws.. Just show me how perfect you really are. & Now.. I can't ever leave you. I need you." After he said the last words he re-adjusted, to where he & I were face too face. He lead into kiss me, but I flinch away. "Damnit Kat. Why do you need too keep running from me??" He yelled, as he got up & started pacing. "Why can't you just except the fact that I am here too stay, no matter what. Why can't you just let me love you?" & In that moment, as I got up & looked into his eyes. I could finally see.. He wasn't lying. He did love me, & he never will leave. I wrap my arms around him, tighter than I ever have. I don't know how long we sat there.. But we were snapped back into reality when the phone rang. When I went down the stairs, too get my phone. I looked out the window, it was night, & that meant.. Devin. I looked at the number calling me. It was Ashlee.

"Yeah?" I say as I click "accept call".

"Hey, can you & Vic come over too Tony's? His parents are gone until 11 tonight & Tony broke something.. Vic knows how too fix it, & we can hang out while they try & fix it." She said from the other side of the call. You could tell she was smiling, she was happy with Tony. It reminded me of how I felt about Vic.

"I'll ask Vic, but I'm really tired & I need too take a shower, I haven't taken one since two days ago." I say as I chuckle a little at the end. It's been a while since I've taken a shower.. I think the last time was the morning before I went too the hospital.. Ew.

"Damn, okay well just have Vic come over. I'll see you tomorrow!" She said as she hung up. She never let anyone say goodbye, she always had too have the last word.