friends with benefits (cake a.u.) [completed]

fifteen

"Wh-what do you mean? Wh-why are you telling me this now?" I stuttered, my emotions mixing and my stomach was queasy.

"Cal, calm down, I already broke up with her," he tells me, yet I was still in shock.

"Wh-when did you? A-and who was she..?" I started shaking and felt myself being suffocated.

"Rachel, Rachel Baxter, the same girl that Michael likes," he sighed. "I broke up with her when we were fighting that weekend."

"Uh huh.." I muttered.

"Remember that night when I told you I felt lonely and all? Well, that day, Rachel texted me and said that we should break up. I couldn't handle it, I didn't know what to do. She also told me that she liked Michael and I just felt like a loser." He explained. "That was why I needed to leave that morning. I left to go break up with her, because I realized something. I thought that since we both loved someone else-"

"Someone else?" My lips trembled as I stuttered and I swallowed the lump in my throat, eyes starting to sting.

"Someone else, well yeah, let me finish Calum. Please calm down." He pleaded, and I shook my head.

I was stubborn, yes I knew, but what he hid from me was hurting. Would it really hurt him if he told me that he was dating some other girl? Well probably, but that wasn't the point. The point is that he called me his best friend, yet he didn't even tell me that he got into a relationship.

You're a moron Calum Hood, my head tells me as hot fat tears escaped the corner of my eyes.

"Hey, shh," Luke rocks me on his lap, still trying to calm me down.

"Calum, stop crying," He tried again, this time a little more stern.

I wanted to stop crying, but I felt like he just pricked an entire chopping knife into my heart and there was no way I could keep my tears from flowing at how painful it was.

"Why are you crying?" He asks gently and with extreme caution as he flips me around so that I was straddling on either side of his lap.

I felt like a baby, being pacified and all but I just couldn't contain my feelings, not anymore.

"Y-you didn't tell m-me that y-you had a g-girlfriend..." I croaked, my throat hoarse from crying.

"Calum... Hey, I already broke up with Rachel okay? Please don't cry," Luke pleaded me, resting my face between his palms as he kissed my tears off gently.

It kept rolling.

I couldn't help but engulf him into a hug, my face buried into the crook of his neck, tears of sadness staining his shirt. He hugged back, rubbing circles on my lower back as I hiccuped loudly.

"Cal, could you tell me why are you still crying?" He asked and I nodded hesitantly.

I wasn't sure if I should let things out or if I should keep it in. However, I already nodded and there was no turning back.

"I love you so much, like you don't even understand how much I do. I-I-Every time we kiss or do something intimate, I get the tingles. I don't know how you feel, but I feel like it's more than a friendship. I actually feel comfort and love Luke."