The Day I Found Your Smile

Chapter 10

Jaesin's POV

Appa was giving me one of those long lectures again about how I should avoid Oppa because he's useless and shitty and blah blah blah. But instead of paying attention to him, I was fiddling with my fingers and looking at them.

" Jaesin, are u- " That was the peak. I cut Appa off and screamed my lungs out at him.

" I dont care Appa! I dont care if I wanna listen to u about Oppa's uselessness or what not! I've seen him and his friends at school every time u drop him off. His smiles and laughs are things I've never seen before from him whenever he comes home. And because of u, now he's cutting ok?! He's been self-harming because of u. Because of u also I became a loner! No one wants me, not even Oppa. How I wish Omma was still alive because she's the only one who knows how to handle Oppa and me but not u! U dont know us and its not like as if u were ever there when Omma needed u. And dont blame everything on Minseok! Not even Omma's death! " Appa tried to stop me and I slammed the door as I made my way to Minseok's room.

However, I heard vomitting and the boy's voice.

I went into the toilet that was in Oppa's room and gasped. Minseok oppa was vomitting blood and had a knife near his arm. The boy next to him was reassuring him and kept on telling him to take the knife away. The both of them noticed me when I pushed the creaky toilet door back slightly.

Xiumin's POV

I dont wanna live anymore. No. Thats what I always tell myself. I was about to stab myself when Baekhyun came in. He grabbed hold of my two wrists and threw the knife away. I lunged to where the knife was but Baekhyun jumped on top of me.

" Stop it hyung! Dont die because of what happened! Just dont hyung! I need u! " That was when it hit me in the gut. I stopped and threw up again. Baekhyun rubbed my back in circles as the blood continued to spill, and there was someone else who was watching us. I turned around to find Jaesin there. She was covering her mouth with her hands and her back leaned against the wall.

Baekhyun stood aside but I pulled him towards me. I gently pulled him in, before whispering, " Get my ass bitch yeodongsaeng out of the door or else I'll make sure she gets blood on her bed." Baekhyun nodded and went to shoo Jaesin out.

I slouched against the wall, not caring how wet or bloody the floor was.

Appa should have never come into my life. He shouldnt have trusted that loanshark and recommended him to Omma. When Omma wasnt able to repay him back at that time, everything just became a blur and I didnt know how to hope again.

* FLASHBACK *

I stood in the hallway with Jaesin, who was clutching onto me with her teddy bear as Omma went to answer the door.

She peeped through the hole, and immediately backed away. I hid Jaesin behind me and motioned for Omma to come up to us. Omma shook her head and lip synced to me to bring Jaesin to her room and distract her. I pulled Jaesin close behind as a voice boomed through the living room.

" MRS KIMMM!! " The loanshark shouted. His voice was so deep and loud it echoed through every hallway. I pushed Jaesin into her room just as Omma shouted back to the loanshark and closed the door.

" Oppa? What are we going to do? Who is that man? Why is he always asking for Omma? " She asked inquisitively. I shrugged my shoulders and gave her my headphones.

" Be a good yeodongsaeng and go listen to some music to soothe ur mind. I bet Omma will be done with that man soon eo? " I ruffled Jaesin's hair as she hugged me and went onto her computer. I sat on the edge of her bed, staring into space until I heard a scream.

I quickly got on my feet and told Jaesin to stay in the room while I went out. I ran down the stairs, and found the loanshark with a knife in Omma's thigh.

" HAJIMA! HAJIMA! " I lunged forward onto the loanshark as he was about to stab Omma again. He grabbed hold of my two wrists using his knees and put tape on my mouth. He then slashed my cheek and stabbed my left arm. The scream that came from my mouth came out muffled as the loanshark stabbed my knees.

" Stop please! Dont kill my son please!! " Omma pleaded as the loanshark pulled me close to the knife. By then I couldnt stand properly so the loanshark dug his knee into my stomach and slashed my arms.

" If u cant pay ur debt Mrs Kim, ur son is enough to pay me. This was what ur husband requested actually. To kill ur son if u couldnt pay ur debt. And he knew u couldnt, " The loanshark smirked as he was about to stab me again.

Before long, I felt someone push me away, and an ear-piercing shriek...

Annyeong readers! Sorry for violence here XD I was thinking about bad ratchet boys as I wrote the flashback part. Part 2 of Xiumin's history in next chap so pls continue to support this fanfic! Kamsahamnida and saranghae~ <3