Beautiful Tragedy

12

Me and Cam continue to walk around the mall and go into stores.
"Cam, what time are we all leaving" I ask
"4:45" he says
"Well its 4:30 right now" I say and we pay and walk out of the store. I got a lot today. I got a new pair of black vans and a then I got burgundy vans. I got a vans cropped top and a new pair of ripped jeans. I got a hoodie that says im a lot cooler on the Internet and I got a dress where it's black and its tight at the top and kind of like a skater skirt on the bottom. Cam got a lot of stuff too. We got matching sunglasses. They were gold.Any ways me and cam walk to get pretzels and we walk out to my car to see Matt Nash And Hayes standing by the car.
"What took you so long"hayes asks
"We were talking to fans" I say
"Oh ok" they say I get in the car but before I start it I feel my phone go crazy. The #3 and #4 things trending are  #Camsnewgirl and #thotieEspinosa I start to cry because these tweets were terrible I lean my head on the steering wheel.
"Matts sister is a Thot I bet she got in all the guys pants"
"@camerondallas why do you hang out with Matts little bitchy sister are you her baby sitter"
"@amyespinosa your a thot back of cam"
"#THOTTIEESPINOSA ,
Man does that girl know how to be the number one Thot"
"@amyespinosa can go kill her self, shoot
Yourself you slut"
"#thottieespinosa haha go drink bleach"
"@amyespinosa is a whore W-h-o-r-e, open something else other then your legs"
"Who's @amyespinosa..... Oh yeah the new slut it town" and many more Cam takes my phone and reads them as I cry.
"Amy im so sorry" nash says lookig through Twitter on his phone
"Oh my god amy im so sorry" cam says pulling me into a hug. Then we see some teenage girls walking by and they snapped a picture. Fuck my life.
"Why do they hate me" I start
"I don't know what to do" I say into his chest
"Amy It'll be alright let's just get home" matt says
"Ok"I say sadly wiping my tears and started driving. I get to the house and I turn off the car. I slide Cameron's sunglasses from my forehead because my eyes were puffy.I grab my bags and I unlock the door. I walk in and I see the whole house has streamers and lights and every thing I smile. They didn't have to do this.I stand next to Matt.
We go into the living room and I see people and they all yell surprise. I cover my mouth and I feel tears run down my face. Its an actual party that's someone took time to plan. Matt laughs because he's surprised.
"Oh my god guys thank you" I say hugging shawn and Jack J I look around the room for Jack G. I see him standing by a cake.
I run to him grab his cheeks and kiss him. He grabs my waist and pulls me in.
"Thanks babe" I say
"Anything for you" he says and I hug him.
"You didn't have to do this I was fine with just a few people coming over to hang" I say
I didn't know they were going to surprise me and matt I though we might have like a cake for me and matt with just the guys and I but this was totally unexpected.
"But I wanted to surprise you and matt" Jack says
"Your so sweet" I say I look around and every ones dancing and there's flashing lights and every ones talking and laughing and I smile. I go to Matt and I start to cry.
"Awe Amy don't cry" Matt says
"No it's tears of joy I haven't had a birthday party since I was 8 "I say ,Me and Matt started having separate party's but I just stayed home with my old friends Angelina and Nicole. But they moved so I stopped talking to them when I was 9. So I was always alone on my birthday because matt was always out with his friends.
"Amy this is going to the best party ever I promise, lets go introduced you to my vine friends"Matt says and I follow him he brings me to this kid who was really cute, but not hot.
"This is Brent, Brent this is my twin sister Amy"
"Hey" Brent says
"Here I'll Let you guys talk"Matt says walking away
"So what's up"I ask Brent
"Nothing, happy birthday" he says smiling
"️Thanks Brent, you seem cool , we should hang out sometime" I say
"Definitely" he say and we laugh and talk For like 30 minutes.
"Im Ganna say hi to every one else I'll catch up with you later" I say walking away. I see a boy with mint green eyes that were really nice.
"Hey im Amy Matts sister" I say
"Oh im Chris, you know Brent?" he asks
"No I just met him, he's cool" I say
"Oh he's like my best friend" he says smiling
"Oh that's cool"I say and we talk for a few then I met a few other people.
"Hey im amy matts sister" I say to this girl with long brown/black hair
"Hi I'm Madison" she says
"You know the guys"I ask
"Yeah I know them" she says and we dance and talk. I go up to Cameron.
"You knew about this" I ask motioning to the party.
"Yeah" he says smiling
"Awe" I say hugging him.
"Thanks" I say into his chest. He rubs my back. By now the only people being not drunk are
Me
Cam
Jacob
And Shawn
Well Aaron was kind of sober.
"Im getting a headache im ganna go up to my room" I say to Cam
"Here I'll come, you can't be alone on your birthday" he says and we walk up the stairs. I open the door to my room and I see Jack.... Having sex with madison.
"MADISON YOU BITCH AND JACK YOUR AN ASSHOLE I CANT BELIVE I TRUSTED YOU ,YOU TELL ME TO STAY CLEAN THEN YOU DO THIS YOU FUCKER, DONT BE SURPRISED IF IM DEAD TOMORROW YOU ASS,
WITH ALL THE HATE IVE BEEN GETTING AND YOUVE DONE NOTHING" I scream and cry and run to matts room and lock the door. I hear jack yelling
"Amy Amy wait im drunk im sorry"he yells,his words slur but I ignore him and go into matts bathroom and look for his razors. I find them and I make 7 cuts on my left thigh 4 cuts on  my right, I lift up my shirt and make 2 on my last side. I make 8 on my left wrist and 4 on my right. I didn't intentionally do so many it just happened. The silver blade was now mostly red and the white sink was mostly red too The contrast from the red and white gave me chill because I continue to not like cutting but I do it all the time. I've been doing so well but then this shit. I cry and slide down the wall. I hear the door slam open and Cameron opens the bathroom door.
"Wha-wh-what how did you get in here" I say confused.
"I busted open the door" he says then looks at my wrist and I shrug.
"Amy oh my god those are deep" he says kneeling next to me and im sobbing.
"Im sorry you have to see me like this" I say crying.
" Amy it's alright he's a dick and we all knew madison was a slut, you aren't the problem it's him and madison" Cam says
"But I wasn't good enough for him So he moved on" I cry
"Your perfect Amy you know how many of us guys like you , im ganna be honest with you we all think your hot your amazing, shawn liked you I like you Aaron liked you nash , hayes ,Jacob, jack J , Taylor, we all think your beautiful" he says honestly
"Your just saying that to make me feel better" I say
"Amy, I couldn't be more honest in my life" he says
"Are you serious, I don't want any one to leave me again, matt left my dad left , jack is a cheater and he left me for that slut" I say
"I would never leave you like that dick did" he says talking about Jack.I don't say anything I just hug him.
"Thank you" I say
"For what" he says
"Every thing, being my friend, and im sorry ... I might have gotten blood on your light blue shirt" I say
"It's ok my shirt won't die" he says and I laugh. He washed out my cuts and it stung but I didn't care.