Life

Chapter 16

We make it there and now I can finally breathe for once. The tension in the car was killing me and I didn't know how much longer I could handle. I had planned this so that we can at least try to make up. My body yearns for him so much. Before I left, I had packed us some of his favorite food. Since Hunter always does sweet things like this for me, I figure I do the same for him. I have to have this man in my life. I don't mean to sound obsessive but it's a weird attachment I have. I hope he doesn't find it creepy.

"What's all this for really?"

"Just come on."

"Where are you taking me?"

I don't answer. I just guide him to where the perfect spot is.

"Azalea, answer me. You're really starting to piss me off more."

"Just relax. Seriously. We're here anyway."

I took him to the place where we first had met and had our first date at. I'm hoping that if everything goes well as it should, I have something underneath my outfit that he might like. Every time something comes up, there is always an argument about something. That's one thing we really can't keep doing.

"Close your eyes." I whisper.

I strip the outfit right off and lay on the blanket that lays on the soft grass. Please like what I've done for you. Underneath is little something sexy for him.

"What are you doing?"

I'm shocked and embarrassed. I was hoping for a better response. Quickly, I cover myself and stand up looking directly at him with hurt in my eyes. Confused as I am, his expression is unreadable. I'm afraid to know what he is thinking.

"I thought I could surprise you and make up for everything like you do for me."

"Just put your clothes back on. We are going back home."

He turns his back towards me and doesn't say another word. Tears are falling rapidly down my cheeks. How embarrassing. Turns out he wasn't turned on by any of this. He wasn't turned on by me. Hunter doesn't want to make love to me. He is that pissed. I don't wanna think about what he might say or do.

I head back to the car seeing him in the driver side waiting for me to get in impatiently. My heart is beating fast. I quickly wipe my eyes and hurry to the car. I'll take care of everything in the morning while he is still sleeping.

On the ride back home, not a word was spoken. About 10 minutes of the ride back home, he turns off the music and still doesn't say anything the rest of the way. The minute we pull up in the driveway, I rush out of the car yet he calls out to me. I ignore him and run to the room. This is so embarrassing.

"Azalea!"

I don't even wanna look at him. He makes me feel empty now. Loving him is actually killing me deep inside. The door handle moves rapidly until it clicks open. What does he want now? He is sending me mixed signals and I don't know which to follow. Hunter better not come over to me and try to do something because I am definitely not up for it.

"Azalea, we need to talk."

I nod my head.

"Fine. I'll do all the talking. I want us"

I leave the room before he could finish his sentence. But before I could leave, he grabs hold of my wrist and grips it tight. I don't want to hear what he has to say.

"I think it's best if we start seeing other people. Neither one of us seem to get along anymore. It's constant arguments and I'm tired of making up for it."

My knees drop to the floor along with my heart. I can't believe he said it. I wasn't ready for this kind of pain. I wasn't ready for him to say what I knew he had meant. My heart wasn't ready for anything in this relationship; it's painful. Hunter kneels in front of me and gives me one last kiss. My eyes are slightly open. I don't want him to stop. Nothing else takes place.

Hunter leaves the room while I sit there on the floor crying my eyes out so hard. I can't even remember the last time I had cried this hard. I hear the car take off and I'm left alone. If only I can take everything back. If I had the power. What am I going to do now? I'm so used to having him around. I loved it so much when he snaked his arms around my waist every time I would clean or when he would slap my ass every time I would bend down. I loved the humor we had between one another. But if things are going to better this way for the both of us than so be it. Although, are we still going to be living together? Is he moving out permanently?

My phone rings and it's Hunter calling. As usual, I'm just going to ignore it. I need time to heal. My wounds are wide open and at this rate, I'm not sure how long it will take for me to heal. Right now I think I should take a nap. I need to relax and try to occupy myself while everything blows over. If only we could make love one last time to see if there was still something feelings left over.

Hunter is calling again but I accidentally answer.

"Azalea?"

I guess I have no choice but to respond.

"Yea?"

"Are you OK?"

Are you kidding me right now?! You're really going to ask me that kind of question right now? Do you not know how to think?

"I'll be fine. I gotta go. Bye."

I hang up the phone before he could answer back. Just hearing his voice kills me. I want him back but I'm not the type to beg. If I don't keep any kind of contact with him than I'll make it through this break up. I don't wanna hear his voice, I don't wanna see him in any way. Maybe if I go to the coffee shop down the street than I can relax.

The moment I grab my things, Hunter pulls up in the driveway. Quickly, I run to the mirror and do some touch ups. Before he could knock on the door, I opened it right on time to leave and act like I never knew he was here.

"I just came to pick up a few more things."

I don't say a word. He backs up slowly while I walk out and lock the door behind me.

"Azalea, can I get my things?"

"Later. I have things to do."

Hunter sighs and gets in his car and drives off. By things I think he meant his key to my house and more clothes. He can get his stuff later. Right now, I'm hurt emotionally. I just want to go and take a nice warm shower. All of this is just pathetic. I don't understand how making up and talking things through like normal people; normal adults can be. But of course, the pain within my heart takes over and nothing but tears flow.