Life

Chapter 14

No.

This can't be happening. I'm tired of the back and forth. Tired of the arguments. Why can't things be peaceful? Why the hell am I always crying? It's getting annoying. I can't keep up with crying all the time. 

Hunter, I love him so much but right now is not a good time. I know he doesn't accept the fact that we might actually not see each other but if that's the case then there is no point of us being together. I can't help that I'm older. I can't help that I'm in love with him. Shit happens and this shit is something that shouldn't. He should be happy for me at least. I'm not getting that vibe from him though.

What hurts the most is how he isn't proud or at least try to comfort the idea. 

"Azalea"

"Don't." I sob. "You're not happy about the idea. You're not happy for me. I know it's a lot to process but the least you could do is encourage me about it. I can't help the fact that I'm capable of having this kind of opportunity."

Hunter presses his lips against mine, soft and swift movements making me swoon. How much more are we going to take? 

He lets go of my waist and strips immediately in seconds and hops in the shower with me. By then, he has already grabbed hold of my body again and presses his lips against my own. His hands slowly caressing my body as the water showers over us. The hot and steamy water has me at my vulnerability. His gentle touch against my body has my mind going blank. I want him to touch me more but going through intimate moments like this doesn't help the situation.

"I am proud of you. I'm just scared of losing you." he admits.

I'm stunned at his choice of words. Not something I was expecting but I'm still shocked. His aura, his tone; all made it seemed like he didn't care. Like he was mad at the idea. I swear, this man knows how to rip my heart out of my chest and lock it in his or something. 

"Baby, I love you and I support you on the idea. I'm just going to miss you."

"I will miss you too but I don't think I'll be that busy all the time." I try to smile but somehow I fail at the attempt. He has my body pressed against his tightly as he grips my body tight. I can't think straight. At this point I'm confused. His lips slowly move towards my jawline to my collar bone. I love this feeling. This is what turns me on. I can feel his erection rub against my thigh to my pelvis. I want us to make love.

After going through that little experience in the shower, I find myself making it hard to walk. It felt like it's been days since we made love. 

By the next day, Hunter has been acting a bit different. He's been himself but at the same time he hasn't. I can't quite put my finger on it. Most of the time I let it slide but a little part of me is annoyed by his actions. I ignore it the best way I could but nothing stops me from going up to him.

"Hey, Hunter?"

"Yea?"

"Are you okay?"

"Yea."

"Because it seems like you've been avoiding me and also, you've been acting a bit different lately." I used the term 'differently' that way he doesn't feel offended if I used any other term. I've been feeling a bit annoyed because I feel like you're hiding something from me."

"No. Don't think that." he walks up to me.

"We haven't spoken in a while and well...I don't know." I shyly look away avoiding his gaze. Hunter's tall figure hovers over me making me short as it is.

"Don't." his grabs my chin to angle the direction he wants me to look at him. "I've just been busy with a couple things. Nothing for you to worry about."