Life

Chapter 15

I feel horrible. Not only because I got sick but because of the fact that Hunter is mad at me. I didn't mean for any of this to happen. It just did. It's not my fault that I managed to have a higher education. This is who I am. We spoke about how things will still work out but I guess he couldn't stand the thought of us not being to spend time together because we will be doing our own thing else where. If I never had smart brain then my life would be normal. I'm still me though. I can't my knowledge that I was born with. 

I was rooting for things to work out for the both of us. He loves me and I love him. I don't understand why things had to come to this. He knows as well as I do that I wanna be with him. I just can't picture us apart seeing other people. I need to stop over thinking and just calm down. If my heart rate beats any faster I could make things worse for my health considering my condition. 

What am I going to do?

I'm completely hopeless. I ended up causing more trouble for him. Hunter has even spoken to me let alone glanced over. He has been quiet the whole time. Things are tough, I know. I wanna make things better but I feel as though if I do, it will make matters worse. I'm just confused. I'm scared to talk things out with him.

I might as well watch some TV to bring my mind at ease. I can't think straight. I can't sleep. I need to calm down and take some better medication that will help me fall asleep. Right now, there is nothing good to watch so maybe I should read. That could help. 

"You're quiet."

"Huh?" 

Did he just speak to me?

"You're quiet. You haven't said anything since you been up."

"I don't know what to say considering you're mad at me so I assumed that you didn't want to talk to me."

"I'm not that mad. Things happen. We can discuss everything when we get home."

I nod in agreement. I know he sees me because I can feel his eyes on me. His eyes shooting daggers in my heart. What am I going to do with myself? All I feel now is being numb. There isn't much to say. The air feels thick enough. I just want to leave this hospital. Seriously, I cannot be that sick to stay here all day and night.

The nurse comes walking in to check on Hunter and I. Turns out I can leave but Hunter might have to stay another night. I hate being home alone. It's nice for a couple days but I can't stand it. I'm so used to being with him. There isn't much to ever take care of when I'm home. The house is already spotless enough. If I clean anymore, my fingers would fall off. The longer I lay in this bed, the more I want to scream. I hate hospitals.

"Before you leave, we want to give you a flue shot. This vaccine will help you in the long run as well."

Great. I just love getting shots. 

I fucking hate needles. I close my eyes and by the time I know it, it's over so now all I have to do is gather my things and leave. I wave Hunter goodbye but he brushes me off. I knew he was still mad. If he was still mad, then why did he bother asking me why I'm quiet. Whatever. I have other things to do. My main focus right now is coming home. I want to be away from here as far as possible. I'm still concerned about Hunter but right now, he doesn't want me.

The feeling that I have right now, I can't even describe. As I walk through the door of my house, I feel so much leave my presence. Like a bad spirit was taking over me. I feel relieved. The phone starts ringing and I'm afraid to even see the name pop up. Just as I expected, it's Hunter.

"Hi"

"Why did you leave early?"

"I wasn't that ill and I took a vaccine. So, I'm fine."