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Love is complicated

Jess's P.O.V

The drive to the airport to pick up Emily was silent been honest I was still mad at Michael. I stared at my lap picking at the top in my jeans. 'Look babe I'm sorry okay she need help and I couldn't say no I am truly sorry' he speaks taking my hand in his and squeezing it. I pull away 'who calls a ex of all people when they want a break from their parents?'
'I don't know, Emily apparently' he responds. Michael pulls into a car parking spot and I quickly climb out slamming the door behind me 'hey! Careful with the doors you'll make the hinges fall off' he scolds, I roll my eyes at him and march towards the terminal where Emily getting off. I take a seat and Michael does the same next to me 'how is she stating for?' I ask looking down at the floor 'about a week' I nod my head still refusing to look at Michael. 'Look Jess darling I'm sorry I didn't tell you okay?' He speaks softly. 'It feels like we're going back to our old relationship when you wouldn't tell me things, you wouldn't answer my calls or texts, you would come back late stinking of booze. You weren't the same Michael I feel in love with and it started like this with you not telling me things and I can't go through that again Michael.' I stare at him dead in the eye trying to gauge his reaction he says nothing just kisses me on the forehead and takes my hand in his. No sooner had he done that there's clicks and flashes of cameras all around us, paparazzi surrounding us asking all different kinds of questions 'what are you doing at the airport?' Who's this girl?' 'How do you know Michael?' The paparazzi begin to moan and complain as someone pushes there way through a look of disgust appearing on my fave when I was see who it is, Emily. Everything about Emily was fake from her long bleach blonde extensions, size E boobs and her long plastic nails. 'Hey Michael it's been so long' she practically shouts throwing her arms round him, Michael hugs her back. 'And Jess' she speaks looking at me 'you haven't changed at all' I really don't know whether to take that as an insult or a compliment. She pulls me close to her and I put her back half heartedly. Trying not to seem rude in front of all these people.

On the way back to the house we grab pizza for everyone apart from Emily who wants a salad so it takes us even longer to get back. 'We got pizza' I shout as we walk through the door 'ahh yes thank you' Calum smiles talking the pizzas out of my hands and placing the on the counter. I grab a couple of slices and a plate before sitting at the table next to Ashton. The entire dinner all anyone talks about is Emily. Apparently she's had a couple of boyfriends since Michael and her Michael weren't together that long at least not as long as him and Anna. She was working as a waitress but got fired and got mixed up in some pretty bad shit with drugs etc. and her parents have apparently been on her case about sorting her life out and she needed a break. After watching a movie my eyes begin to feel heavy so I go upstairs to get ready for bed, I just finished changing into pajamas when my laptop signals to me that I'm getting a Skype call I answer the call and Sky's face pops up on the screen. Her face is heavily made up and she's dressed all in black 'hi Sky how are you? How is tour?' I asked her
'Amazing except I miss Harry loads' she honestly does look sad and like she misses him I smile sympathetically at her. 'Look I know you probably don't want to talk about it but what the fuck is Emily doing staying with you and Michael!' She asks
'I don't know apparently having family trouble'
'Everyone has family trouble what everyone doesn't do is run of to their ex crying about it'  I smile at her, I hear a faint knocking and Michael speaking softly 'Jess can I come in?'
'Listen Sky I have to go but I'll talk to you soon. Good luck!' I blow her a kiss before ending the call 'come in' I call to Michael. I walk to the bathroom brushing my teeth and removing my make up as he gets ready for bed. We have to sleep in the same room now and Emily is staying in the room I was originally in. 'Do you wanna talk about it?' Michael asks timidly.
'Do I want to talk about it' I repeat louder then he spoke. 'She is a snake Michael and you know it, she will ruin everything for us, she will stop at nothing till we hate one another again. The fact they you even still talk to her is so fucking dumb it's unreal. She wasn't even a proper girlfriend, she was some groupie or some shit. Why would you still talk to someone you no longer care about, in less there's more to it then you're telling me is there Michael?' I crying by now not caring about the tears spilling down my face as fast as a rushing river. 'No Jess of course there's nothing more, I promise'
'Then why wasn't I enough!' I yell at him hot tears streaking my face 'why wasn't I enough!' I repeat 'why was she worth the distance and I wasn't, why was Anna worth the distance and I wasn't' I shrug wiping tears of my face. 'Because I knew I would cheat and I didn't want to hurt you' he responds.
'You did a fucking wonderful job of that didn't you' I clap sarcasm lacing every word I speak. 'I'm sorry for wanting to help someone in need' he shoots at me.
'What about me! Huh! What about when I needed you! Where were you then. That's right thousands of miles away not even thinking of me. When you were the reason I could not sleep at night and the reason I listened to stupid love songs because I could relate YOU to every single one of them. When I was lying on my death bed were you there for me? No. You were having the time of your life partying with a bunch of fake Hollywood stars.' I climb into bed 'You can sleep on the sofa tonight' I  instruct him. 'I have something to say before I leave.Loving you was the last thing I felt really good at, the reason I smile is you, I am trying my hardest to be good for you there are millions of reasons why I am not with Emily or Anna but the main on is that they're not you and I don't see why that isn't good enough for you.' I swallowed my pride as I carried on pouring my heart out to Jess I can almost feel my pride crawling up my throat threatening to spill all over the floor. 'After we broke up I hated you but I still missed you, I hoped you're next boyfriend got small pox yes I said small pox and a part of me still loved you and still loves you now. If I could I would tie your arms to a daydream and auction you off to my fondest memories. When I saw a picture of you and your new boyfriend I anted to reach inside my computer screen and snatch the happiness right off his face. there is nothing rational about our love. Yeah love stutters when it gets nervous, love trips over it's own feet, love is clumsy and my heart refuses to wear a helmet. Love is fucking irresponsible  and I wish it stop using me as a practice target. ' With that Michael closes the door softly. I hear strangled sobs come form the other side causing me to sob into my duvet. My mind begins to numb from all the tears as I cry myself to sleep pondering why love is so complicated.