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Michael's P.O.V

'Come on mate there is barely anytime left in the tour then you can try and speak to her' Calum informs me. I look up from my phone screen where I'd been praying a text from Jess would show up on. 'Yeah I suppose' I shrug my shoulders half heartedly. We were currently all sat around the kitchen table discussing tonights show and what we want to do on are break etc. I excuse myself from the conversation and head upstairs to shower and change. After a quick shower and changing into my gym shorts and a Jack Daniels t-shirt I tell the others I'm off to the gym.

I don't listen to music on my way to the gym, I walk in silence thinking about Jess how I could have handled the situation differently my thoughts are interrupted by the sound of my phone signalling I have a text.
Ash: don't forget we start interviews at 1:30
Me: I'll be there don't worry

After a quick hour in the gym I head back to the tour bus taking in the beautiful Virginia, I notice how the couple who are obviously on a first date make eye contact then look away or how the woman trying to calm down her baby makes soft cooing noises. I run up the stairs changing in to my skinny jeans and a plain black top.
'Michael you ready? Come one or we're going to be late' Zop our tour manager shouts up the stairs. I run down the stairs and slotting in next to Luke in the car. 'You really miss her?' He asks me.
'Of course I do Luke, I feel as though someone has punched a huge hole in my heart. She was all I ever wanted. She may have left but she lives in my brain.' It's silent for a while after I finish talking, Like's clearly trying to think off something to say but before he can speak I begin again.
'I mean I had plans, dreams goals and shit before her but now she is my plans, dreams, goals and shit and I lost her Luke, I lost her' I look the other way out the window not wanting to carry on this conversation, I pull out my earphones turning on Taylor swift how you get the girl stare out the window wondering what Jess is doing right now and whether she misses me.

Before I know it we've arrived at the radio station where we're doing our first interview of the day 'right boys here we are, remember smile and be polite' Zop tells us. 'Let's go'. Climbing out of the van I'm greeted by screaming fans 'Michael Michael, you look really cute' I hear them shout. I thank them and take photos with a few of them before security usher us into the building 'hi 5 seconds of summer here for an interview with Alex and Liam' Zop smiles at the young man behind the counter 'ahh yes' the young man taps away on his computer before standing and handing Ashton, Luke, Calum and I a pass each and instructing us to follow him.

We follow him up two flights of stairs and down a long corridor we're
Lead into a small plain room , the room is very simple with white walls, two obviously new grey sofas sit against the wall in between them is a table with a vase of white roses on it. 'Have a seat Alex and Liam will be here shortly' the producer Cindy tells us 'is there anything you don't want them to ask you about?' She asked we all shrug and shake our heads. 'Okay great' she claps her hands smiling.'hi you must be Mikey, Luke, Calum and Ashton' a tall brunette guy with a nose piercing and rectangular glasses shakes our hands individually 'I'm Liam nice to meet you' a second guy who is also tall but has curly ginger hair and freckles. 'I'm Alex' he shakes our hands too. 'So we're going to ask you questions then you're going to perform she's kinda hot?' We nod and agree. 'Great that's get started' they both smile at us and gesture for us to sit down on the sofa. 'Hello and welcome to Complete Radio, I'm Liam and this is Alex and today we are joined by the lovely guys of 5 seconds of summer' Liam introduces us clapping a action Alex copies. 'Thanks for having us' Ashton tells him 'thanks you for coming' Alex jokes. The others smile and giggle at this I just sit with my head hanging down staring at my hands. 'How is everyone? We all good?' Alex asks.
Calum simply nods while Luke and Ashton nod and add 'yeah brilliant' and 'all good'.
'So why don't we get right too it and ask you some fan questions?' Liam asks excitedly.
'Yeah let's do this' Ashton shouts I smile a little and clap my hands whilst Luke cheers beside me.
'The first question is from @lukeseyes and they want to know what is the last song you listened to? Shall we go down the line' Alex suggests.
'Mine was Good Charlotte Hold on' Luke's first to speak.
'How you get the girl Taylor Swift' I speak for the first time in the interview.
'Umm.. I think it was Give me one good reason Blink 182' Calum speaks happily. 'It's was supersoaker Kings of Leon' Ashton says whilst nodding his head.

'Right next question is from @ashtonxdimmples: do any of you have girlfriends? We had to ask it so many people were asking.
'No none of us do, we're a very single band' Ashton answers. The rest of the interview goes by quickly with me giving short answers that make it seem as if I'm fine. We're currently driving to the next interview which is for some teen magazine. I'm sat in the with Calum next to me, he has earphones in so isn't really paying that much attention to me. I pull my black vans rucksack on to my lap and begin searching through it for my notebook so I can write my thoughts down.

Do any of you have a girlfriend?

Personally I think this is the worst question ever because it shows no one really cares about the music we're making all they want to know is who we're fucking and really it isn't any of there business. I'm sorry this letter isn't as intelligent or heartbreaking as the last one but now I'm no longer in pain I'm just angry. When did who we're dating become more important then the music we're making, was it when MTV was invented? Or when what you looked was more important then the
Music?

There was a time when music had the power to change the world for the better, when we could do some good and when it actually mattered. Now it's the same old shit played again and again. I don't know if I can carry on in an industry like that I don't want to be controlled anymore, I want to be free to do whatever the fuck I want.

I'm starting to think that I think too much, I don't think it's very good for me maybe one day I'll think so much my head will explode. People always say you shouldn't think too much because it's dangerous. I think it's dangerous because when you think you're left to wonder about all the things that usually you would drown out with music or drugs or I don't know love, you're forced to face reality. It's scary how bad thinking can be.

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