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Don't forgive him

Jess's P.O.V
I place the CD in my laptop sighing deeply and loudly bracing myself for what I am about to hear. Preparing myself for the worst, I click play. I'm shocked when I hear the first chord of an acoustic guitar as most of their songs are up beat and happy I could tell this song was going to be serious.'don't talk let me think it over. How we gonna fix this, how we gonna undo all the pain' It's like I'm hit by a truck with in the first line hearing the pain in Michael's voice. No don't forgive him. I remind myself. He sounds so hurt yet his voice is so beautiful.

'When I close my eyes and try to sleep
I fall apart, I'm fighting hard to breathe
You're the reason, the only reason
Even though my dizzy head is numb,
I swear my heart is never giving up
You're the reason, the only reason.'
The chorus is the most haunting beautiful thing I've ever heard I'm fighting so hard not to call him and forgive him tell him I love him that I always have and always will. That he pisses me off so much but I want to spend the rest of my life pissed of at him, if that's the only way I can have him in my life. That I don't want anyone else to hold him,kiss him, please him, I don't want him to want anybody else. I want to call him and tell him I need him and that he completes me but I can't and it takes everything in me not to call him and tell him. I love him.

I walk over to the counter and pour myself a glass of whiskey, the song still playing in the background Bitter words spoken,Everything broken
It's never too late to bring us back to life. Wiping away the tears racing rapidly down my cheeks I grab my phone and open Twitter I decide to tweet something to let Michael know I've listened to the song, that is if he sees it '@JessHansdown You're the reason the only reason' the song finishes and I'm on my fourth drink of the evening. I check Twitter seeing I have a new notification. Michael had seen my tweet, he'd favourited it too. Maybe I should forget or about this and forgive him. Don't forgive him,don't forgive him, don't forgive him, he hurt you, he broke you, you hate him. My subconscious reminds me her words stinging like venom as they enter my mind but she's right I hate him. I hate him, I hate him, I hate him but I love him...

A/N: I haven't updated in a while so here, sorry about that I've been super busy with school,family,friends etc. This is just a short little filler. I'll update again soon. Don't forget to comment,vote,share and all that other stuff you can do. Love you all.xx