My Personal Diary; My life.

4 entry's. 2 A/N's.

A/N; Since nobody happened to post anything about wanting saved texts, I assume you don't care either way. So I will not be wasting time and space posting lovey-dovey texts. Lol.

February 13, 2010:

So Matt made me cry today shocker there we can barely go two weeks without fighting or me crying. Luckily he didn't say he was gone this time(:

He's amazing and I would so dump Damien for him but I can't bring myself to do that because what if I dump Damien and me and Matt get in a fight and he says he's gone and this time he really is? Then what? Exactly I'm screwed. Gosh what did I do? I wish I could just date 'em both, but that would be horrible. And I don't want to make the wrong decision because I don't want either one of them to go away, sometimes I wish I was ugly!

April 4, 2010:

So a lot to catch you up on. I am dating Maliki, which I don't know if I mentioned him before but he is AMAZING! He makes me smile all the time and he has AMAZING hair, when I smile it is almost always because of him. Well Friday I went over Manda's and Maliki, Connor, Ron, and Jake were all over at Jake's house. So me and Manda went over there. Well Connor left and Maliki went inside to get something to drink so I went with him(: After he got done drinking his water we made out. Well then Ron, Manda, and Jake came inside! Well there was no where for us to sit cause Ron and Manda were on the couch, Jake was on the two seat-er. So I pulled Mason towards a room. Jake's like I wouldn't use my bed. So Maliki pulled me towards another door. I layed him down on the bed got on top of him and we made out for like a really long time. Well then we went out into the living room to tell Ron to call his dad and tell him to come get them because they had to be back at Ron's house so Maliki's mom could pick him up from there. Well Ron said he would, so we went towards Jake's room and I sat on Jake's bed andMaliki stands in front of me and Jake comes in and starts picking up cups. Well Maliki goes "Dude do you have to do that now?" And Jake says "Yeah" Well Maliki told him to hurry up and so did I and Jake goes "This is my fuckking house!" But he laughed and left. Maliki layed on top of me and we rolled around and made out a little. He put his hands up my shirt, I told him he could go up but not down. So we kept making out and I started rubbing his dick through his pants. Well he was getting hard, so I went to go underneath his pants but I couldn't.. BELT BLOCK! So I undid his belt and rubbed his dick underneath his jeans while we made out some more. THEN I undid his pants and he took them off and I went down on him. His dick is AMAZING! It's a GREAT size, and all mine!(:

June 6, 2010:

Okay let me note.. I haven't wrote in a week going on two! Right now I'm currently listening to Youth of the Nation by P.O.D. So a lot to catch you up on! Even though my love for Maliki is through the roof; I decided to take a break, for two reasons:

1.) I started cheating again so I wanted to end it before it got too serious.

2.) I like other people and I don't think that's fair to him. Just my opinion.

So now that me and Maliki are over within the next two hours of me dumping him, I made a stupid mistake! I gave Joesph head! When I think about myself (not to downgrade me, but honestly) I think, slut! He was asking me while I was doing it how many times I've done it before.. Because I was so "good" at it. I had to stop and think. Give me a second to think again.. 4..? That I can remember. Damien, Kevin, Allen, and now Joe. Make that 5, Maliki. Damien, once: age 12 (one month after my birthday). Kevin three times: age 12 (also hardly 12). Allen once: age 12 (almost 13). Maliki once: age 13. Joe once: age 13. All that within' the last two years, wow! I have a new best friend Elenore! She goes to youth group and church and since I hangout with her so much I started going too. I've learned god is a savior and he forgives all sins. But I shouldn't take that for granted. That being said I've met DJ through youth group!(: He's such a good kid, and I've already started turning him bad:/ He's only kissed two girls, but I sent him a pic of my butt. He told me he wants to have sex with him. I can't say that's going to happen. And I feel bad for turning him away from his god, and to me. When really I should be finding god with him; everyone knows I need it.

June 20, 2010:

Lately I've been thinking a lot and I'm a strong and independent girl. I don't need any guy to complete me not even Zach. And for once in my life, I don't like anyone(: And I hope it stays this way! That's all I have to say. Night(:

A/N; I will leave this as the ending(: I like this. Just thought I'd let you know in previous entry's I mentioned Zack. My "best friend". That's not the same Zach as that one ^^ As you can see the names are spelt different. Hopefully that's how you will be able to tell them apart.