My Personal Diary; My life.

Last four entry's. And Last A/N.

May 30, 2011:

So yep me and Brandon broke up, a week before school let out and two days before our ten month. He dumped me. Wasn't my decision. Because I honestly love him (still do). But anyways when he did it he said it was because I overreacted about him going to his ex's sisters party. But I had reason! Not only did Autumn tell me the entire time he was there he isolated himself from the party but with Mika! But also that he talked to her about breaking up with me for HER. He said that wasn't true. But who knows. Now he told me it's because I overreacted about everything and we fought too much so he was just unhappy. I don't know. (We never fought that I can remember?) So yep, we broke up and aren't getting back together. I kept some stuff from our relationship, but gave a lot back too. He's got my undies, and my innocence:O Oh well at least I lost it to someone I love. AND my best friend. But after we broke up I needed a 'pick-me-up'. So I got with Ian. Mind you he has a girlfriend. But yeah the past two days I've been with him. A lot Friday, the day school let out for summer. I went back to school after it got out to talk with him, and he kissed me. Twice! He was shaking so bad! He told me it was because he was lifting and because he was nervous. Then Saturday morning he woke me up and we went for an hour walk down the rail road tracks to my secret place under the bridge and made out and I felt him up. He tried feeling me up but I wouldn't let him. His dick isn't as big as it looks in the pictures he's sent me before but it's an alright size. But after that later on that night me and Taylor went forking but we didn't have forks so we went to Ian's house to get forks and it was just me and him inside the house and I got a kiss and a hug(: All night that night he sent me cute little lovey dovey texts but then the next day tells me he can't do it anymore because he can't cheat on his girlfriend whom he 'loves' because she doesn't deserve it. And apparently their gonna last when Kendra (from softball) told me that she made Ian cry at a party, and my brother said she runs him and they fight ALL the time. And Natalie (also from softball) said she's also with her ex's cousin Nico. I don't trust her and he's going to get hurt, it's whatever though. I got Luke and Connor still(: I guess you could say I'm single, and ready to mingle!(;

June 2, 2011:

So yesterday I had practice at 9am, so I went to practice and got out 30 minutes early. So I went to Brandon's house.. til noon. When we got there it was a little awkward. I layed down on his couch (the one I lost it on) and we watched TV. After a minute he was laying on top of me smiling, I was like I'm tired. He offered for me to take a nap and I said 'nah I'm good'. After a second he kissed me, then we made out. All the making out got boring. What spiced it up is when he got hard and started dry humping me, we both had basketball shorts on so I LITERALLY felt the tip going in me. We didn't have condoms but damn, I wanted his cock so bad. So I was stupid and asked if he wanted to try anyways, and you know guys.. OF COURSE he wanted to try! So we did he pulled off my pants then his own and I layed there patient. Then he grabbed his dick and tried to put it inside me, of course I'm super tight and his dick is fat so it wouldn't go all the way in. It kept sliding up so he grabbed my legs and put them over his shoulders, grabbed my sides, and pulled me onto it. After a few more tries he FINALLY got it in. It felt amazing! After he came all over my shirt, and FAVORITE thong he went and got me different undies and a shirt. After I got my panties on he helped me take off my shirt without getting cum in my hair. I layed there. Then he came to cuddle with me, (I didn't wanna cuddle though, too soon) So I was like.. "Let's do it again." And he laughed and said "Gimme a minute to recharge." So after a few seconds he was kissing me again. He tried going down on me but I wouldn't let him (I had just gotten out of practice, yuck!) He fingered me instead hardcore, and played with my clit while I squirmed all over the place. Then he did the same thing as before and fuckked me once more(: I wanted round three soon after and he wanted it to be in the shower, but my hair wouldn't have dryed so he took a shower and I waited, I went through his room and found a picture of us on homecoming day, and a I LOVE YOU sign I made for him, and my valentines day card I got him and every note I'd ever written him(: He soon got out. And I pulled his towel off him and pushed him on his bed and gave him head. I figured better not press my luck on not using a condom for the third time, but my mom came to pick us up so he never did cum.

But think.. Only my third time having sex and I'm glad to say with the same guy. He's supposed to come over tonight so we can do it again(: We'll see what happens.. 

July 7, 2011:

Okay so technically all this happened yesterday. But yeah it's after midnight so all this happened June 6th.

So YESTERDAY I went over to Brandon's house at noon so I left my house, it took me 20 minutes to get to his house but I stayed til 4:45. And guess what we did in that 4 hours and 25 minutes? We had sex.. FIVE TIMES. Here's the story.

So he met me after 18 minutes of walking by myself and walked with me for the two minutes back to his house. He told me he needed a shower and jumped right in, I was hesitant but eventually I got in with him, we tried having sex in there but it wasn't working out, so we got out. We went into his parents' bedroom and did it on their bed, we were using a condom at first, but ever since we did it without it it's not the same.. I like to be able to feel all the definition of his penis. So he ended up taking it off, and he fucked me the same way as last time, me laying in front of him, and his standing in front of me, with my legs up and him railing me. After he came on my bare chest I got cleaned off with my towel from the shower and got my clothes on. Then we went to the basement and did it three more time, once the same way as before. Then we stopped. He decided he wanted to make me climax just like he had been doing all day, so he layed me down on my back and kissed from my mouth down my neck, to my collar bone, and kept going. He ate me out, and fingered me and rubbed my clit. He was doing everything right but I wasn't cumming. So I took over, I showed him how it was done as he was fingering me, but I still didn't cum. So we gave up. Then we continued having sex with me on top, then doggy style, he got me from behind but no anal. After all that sex we figured no more, we were both pretty tired. So we made fajitas(: He's a good cook(: I helped though!(: Well anyways we ate then my mom was supposed to come so we chilled. Well we started kissing and things got heated. So we decided (in his living room) that we were going to fuckk one more time! So we did! He didn't cum that time, he not once used a condom, bad choice:( But it feels so much better without one!(: 

Then I left.

This day is the day I decided to put my personal life on Wattpad.. I don't know how I feel about this but some names have been changed (most). I've had up's a down's in my life, don't judge!

June 11, 2011:

Gosh today has blew. I've spent all day besides a part of the day I took out to hangout with my best friend (it's a girl) on Wattpad, but anyways. Why has today sucked? Well you see, it's sucked because for once in my life, my phone hasn't went off once today. Also I got nothing to take my mind off it! I seriously lost ALL my guys in a matter of days, 2 to be exact.

Brandon won't text me, like at all.

Ian got pissed off because Luke and flipped out and blamed me for his girlfriend dumping him. It's not my fault he can't keep his hands off the merchandise!

Connor got mad because I asked him to stand up to his mom about us.

Luke got sick of waiting for me to be available and apparently found a girlfriend.

I have started to confide in a friend on Wattpad. He's an older man, but boy can he listen and give advice. I really like him as a person.

Damn, I miss Brandon.

A/N; Obviously I've caught up with today's date. I plan to continue writing as I update my diary in real life. On a positive note. I wrote that earlier today, and by the time now I have sorted things out with Brandon, it was a misunderstanding. But that's the only one I have figured out.. I still love him, I just wish he felt the same way :/