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November 7, 2009:

So sorry for not writing in so long a lot has happened. Halloween night I went trick er treating with Olive, John, and Damien. John wasn't supposed to go but Olive got bored so she asked him to come chill. Turns out he had two friends with him. And one of his friends is majorly hott. After me and Olive left I went to her house for the night she had John come over to get in the hot tub. He still had his friends with him. At that time I found out ones name was Allen (the hot one) And ones name was Steve. Olive's dad kicked 'em out after awhile because it was late. Well they were supposed to be staying in my town but not even ten minutes after they left John texted me and said they were coming back and they had nowhere to stay. Well I said give your friend my number he's hot. Not two seconds after I got a text. It was Allen. Basically the whole time we were texting it was about how he thought I was pretty or how I thought he was hott. Or even if he was going to get a kiss when they came back. But you know Olive she can never tell John no. So they came back and from 1am to about 3am we stayed out in the camper with the three boys. Olive's parents didn't know we snuckout her window. From one to three me and Allen did a lot of kissing, to making out, to hugging, to his arms around me, to me getting fingered by him. Boy that kid can make out for a long time, I swear he doesn't even breathe. I liked when he fingered me except his nails were too long!

!SKIP AHEAD!

Yesterday me and Manda went to the Ovid football game. That was a nightmare from the beginning.. We got there and Allen was drinking. Then he was being a dick the whole time he wanted to fight someone. Every time I walked away he didn't notice or didn't care. The last time I walked away I was crying and I turn around to see some girl jumping on him. That was strike one. Well then today we were texting and I told him how I feel about him and he said "I am having a bad day I am gonna take a nap". Strike two. Then we were on the phone and he hands it to Steve, and Steven goes "Allen's really mad, because Mika just texted John and said to stop talking to her!" And I was about to say why does Allen care but then I remembered John had told me that him and Allen want to date girls that are friends, so Steve goes on "So if Mika stops talking to John, Allen is going to stop talking to you." I said strike three and hung up. I mean this isn't cool I could have guys chasing after me; examples: Matt, Damien, Kendall.. Anyone and I pick Allen and I am doing all the work. Only god knows if he liked me or if he wants to get in my pants... I wish I'd know, idkk..

November 21, 2009:

MATT!

So yeah tonight Matt told me to delete his number out of my phone and don't text him again because he doesn't love me anymore because I turned into a bitch. Every time we talk we end up fighting.

ALLEN!

I am still so confused about Allen I know I like him, and I even like him enough to loose my virginity to him if we stay together. I just hope he doesn't decide to move to North Carolina with his dad...

DAMIEN!

He likes me , he's hott too. My mother likes him and wants me to be with him too, and maybe somewhere in my heart I know I like him too, and I always have... There's always a place in my heart for him. He makes me laugh too, and he does care about me, he's the only guy I know that does care about me. It's easy to trust him.